got outta work early, and saw it in the mailbox. got up stares and read it cover to cover. I must say Paul, there is some very personal stuff in there and I would like to thank you for sharring it with us all. At one point I actually got the lump in the throat and almost teary. the part about your wife's surgery, that fucked me up. It's funny how we just think differently when we are parents. Anyway, I also realized how similar we are in quite a few ways as far as writting and thinking. And sometimes even the back pain (I know yours is 1000X's worse than mine), But being a Bricklayer, I sometimes lay 100 pound blocks all day, and come home and want to die from the back pain. Another thing I can relate to with your book, was the part about not bonding for the first few months with your girl, That happened to me as well. The first 3 months were very hard for me between the crying/first few teeth and the fact that she was/is still breast feeding. In the beginning, you are pretty much chopped liver lol. If you don't have the booby, they want nothing to do with you, at first. So I was all bummed out and was taking it hard, until (and I rememmber the exact moment) one night we were sleeping(she sleeps with us, I know bad habit) But she woke up and was chocking, I could see the fear in her little eyes, and i was overcome with fear myself, I raised her hands over head and pressed on her back, and she looked up at me and the releif in her eyes was just followed by the sweetest smile ever. And at that moment, she knew she was safe and wrapped her little arms around me and fell asleep. that's what it's all about too!!!!
I guess what I am saying is, (before my as always rant), it was great to know That I have someone I can relate to man.
In the mid 90's, I went through the whole heart being ripped from your chest thing, and Used (my then solo project) shroud of bereavement as a way to get over that. I actually wrote and entire concept album about her lol. Also, my best friend dying, without my music, i would never have gotten through that one. My grandfather and grandmother both passed on in the last couple years, and I was going to write a song for them, and opted not too, but did use that deppression as inspiration. I can totally relate man. Thanks!
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I guess what I am saying is, (before my as always rant), it was great to know That I have someone I can relate to man.
In the mid 90's, I went through the whole heart being ripped from your chest thing, and Used (my then solo project) shroud of bereavement as a way to get over that. I actually wrote and entire concept album about her lol. Also, my best friend dying, without my music, i would never have gotten through that one. My grandfather and grandmother both passed on in the last couple years, and I was going to write a song for them, and opted not too, but did use that deppression as inspiration. I can totally relate man. Thanks!
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...the new Pain of Salvation "Scarsick" and 10 compilation cd's of all sorts of Metal.. 
