I think its relevent because putting the shoe on the other foot is always the best way to discovery. I also learned later in life how to stop an aggressive mouthy person dead in their tracks. Its amazing how they react and even their verbal responces after you give them what they were dealing ten fold.
I'm well aware of violent tendancies but as I said they are defensive with me. I still seperate myself from those that kicked or microwaved cats. Im a different kind of wack job, Im a very passionate and compasionate person BUT there are people I could kill, this day, but its illegal, they do deserve to die and I have told many I could be found laughing like a lunatic over their quivering bodies, feeling fully justified. One of the reason I have never owned a gun, well that is actually both reason. I could never use one on an four legger but wouldnt hesitate on specific two leggers.
I have two stories, first was seeing my father shoot a woodchuck, it hurt me badly as I saw his life leave him. The other was sometime early teens seeing the movie "In Cold Blood" it horrified me. While not as grafic its still pretty extreme even today considering the circumstance and the fact that they were true.
So Ive always distanced myself from any of this kind of stuff though I've watched my share of action movies which are grafic as shit today... but fuck gore its total bullshit. I dont care to see real life events either, I still cringe at the Kennedy assination. There is three other events that happened while I was young, John, Martin Luther, and Bobby, I dont find that kind of shit amusing at all. All the boys dying in Vietnam. I also lost my mother at 12, she was 38. Nope nothing amusing about life leaving at all. So if these things are the way I was trained.... so fucking be it.