Yet again, I'm kind of in a dilemma.
As some of you remember my psychotic ex-fiance and the thread I made before her and I got together. Well, here is something similiar but not:
There are two parts to this.
The first part is annoying. There is this chick who I met at a friend's Afterhours Party. She was pretty cool and flipped out when she heard that I was a guitarist (she has a thing for that I suppose). Well, her fiance' was there too but she asked for my number. Two days later she called me and we went to Guitar Center.
We hung out quite a bit over the next few days. She later told me that she wished I had kissed her......rewind! I had a fiance' who left me for someone else. I wasn't going to do that shit. But, supposedly, she was in the process of leaving her fiance'. Well, she made the move and blah blah. Then, I could tell, she wanted to have sex. I didn't feel right because of the situation and because of the fact that I couldn't see myself with someone like her. I avoided it every time. Then one night she dragged me out to the bar with her cousin and friend. She got me so drunk, I gave in.
Now, I can't see myself with someone like her. She likes to party too much, she has two kids and she's a little bigger than someone I'd be with. Petite/nice bodies are a must for me. That's just my preference. I'm having a hard time telling her how I feel though I have already told her friend. I haven't really been talking to her. I do feel kind of bad but at the same time I shouldn't because she provoked me, I tried avoiding it.
The second issue:
There is this chick at my work. She's more of the dark/gothic type chick (but I've always had a thing for chicks like that). She has a perfect body and to me, as far as I have seen, she is fucking beautiful. But there seems to be a problem, or a couple rather:
I'm not good at talking to girls to start a conversation. I'll go out for a smoke and I'll comment to her like "Having fun yet?" or "You look bored". She doesn't talk to anyone and I can sense that she has a hard time talking to people. She is extremely shy and is anti-social. I know because I used to be the same way. I really want to talk to her and get to know her but it's hard for me to plus, I don't want to scare her away. I feel really bad for her and would really like to get to know her but I sort of have a fear of rejection. I don't know what the fuck to do. When I'm at work and pass by her, I just get this depressing feeling. I really want to start a conversation with her but I don't know of what and I don't know if she will be able to converse with me without her feeling uncomfortable. I don't want her to feel uncomfortable.
I'm able to sense someone's emotions by how they act. I feel that I am able to analyze a person's personality by their movements, their speech and the way they act to certain situations. Based off of what I have witnessed from her just from my little comments, I sense that her reaction would be nervous. She may not be able to speak properly and feel uncomfortable.
I don't know what to do!
NP: Andromeda - Extension of the Wish
As some of you remember my psychotic ex-fiance and the thread I made before her and I got together. Well, here is something similiar but not:
There are two parts to this.
The first part is annoying. There is this chick who I met at a friend's Afterhours Party. She was pretty cool and flipped out when she heard that I was a guitarist (she has a thing for that I suppose). Well, her fiance' was there too but she asked for my number. Two days later she called me and we went to Guitar Center.
We hung out quite a bit over the next few days. She later told me that she wished I had kissed her......rewind! I had a fiance' who left me for someone else. I wasn't going to do that shit. But, supposedly, she was in the process of leaving her fiance'. Well, she made the move and blah blah. Then, I could tell, she wanted to have sex. I didn't feel right because of the situation and because of the fact that I couldn't see myself with someone like her. I avoided it every time. Then one night she dragged me out to the bar with her cousin and friend. She got me so drunk, I gave in.
Now, I can't see myself with someone like her. She likes to party too much, she has two kids and she's a little bigger than someone I'd be with. Petite/nice bodies are a must for me. That's just my preference. I'm having a hard time telling her how I feel though I have already told her friend. I haven't really been talking to her. I do feel kind of bad but at the same time I shouldn't because she provoked me, I tried avoiding it.
The second issue:
There is this chick at my work. She's more of the dark/gothic type chick (but I've always had a thing for chicks like that). She has a perfect body and to me, as far as I have seen, she is fucking beautiful. But there seems to be a problem, or a couple rather:
I'm not good at talking to girls to start a conversation. I'll go out for a smoke and I'll comment to her like "Having fun yet?" or "You look bored". She doesn't talk to anyone and I can sense that she has a hard time talking to people. She is extremely shy and is anti-social. I know because I used to be the same way. I really want to talk to her and get to know her but it's hard for me to plus, I don't want to scare her away. I feel really bad for her and would really like to get to know her but I sort of have a fear of rejection. I don't know what the fuck to do. When I'm at work and pass by her, I just get this depressing feeling. I really want to start a conversation with her but I don't know of what and I don't know if she will be able to converse with me without her feeling uncomfortable. I don't want her to feel uncomfortable.
I'm able to sense someone's emotions by how they act. I feel that I am able to analyze a person's personality by their movements, their speech and the way they act to certain situations. Based off of what I have witnessed from her just from my little comments, I sense that her reaction would be nervous. She may not be able to speak properly and feel uncomfortable.
I don't know what to do!
NP: Andromeda - Extension of the Wish
