I kind of feel like I'm completely lacking control over my life right now. My supposed best friend isn't making my break up easier, because she's doing nothing but poking the subject with a goddamn stick by causing fights with my ex...
I'm trying to be the reasonable one here, I'm trying to hold my ground, I'm trying to not become an emotional wreck who ceases to function, because it will happen and I know I'd not been with my girlfriend long but this is more a culmination of everything I've felt the last few years just colliding at once and its hitting me hard.
I need to do things my way here, I need to be allowed to be the understanding one who has hope, I need people to leave me be and let me make my own choices, but for some fucking reason no one is able to understand why I need this.
I wish people would realize that when I tell them things that I'm not asking them to help me, I'm not asking them to intervene, I'm not asking for anyone to rebuke my ex, I'm really not asking anything but for someone to let me vent...
I love this world, but fuck the people here.
