Female situation not going so well...whatever I have with this friend of mine (whom I went to prom with just this past weekend) is incredibly ambiguous and has been doomed from the beginning because I move, essentially forever, on June 11th to the bay area where my family is relocating and then I go off to college in Ohio in late August. I can't get over the fact that we could have had something totally awesome and due to horrific circumstance and timing it will never turn into anything. I'm not sure what's happened this week, but there's some kind of disconnect and I feel a bit distant from her, it's not the same energy anymore and I hate it. We got a bit deep a couple days ago, and she obviously brought up the point that she can't get too attached because I'm leaving so soon etc. I dunno, this week has just been funky as hell and I hope that's all there is to it, but for now I'm laying low and seeing what will happen. I just hate the ambiguity of it and I miss the energy of having fun, being all cute and cuddly etc. like we were not even a week ago....It may be a little lame to be all caught up over this but I haven't really had this kind of experience at all, especially with such a fantastic person, so I of course enjoy the shit out of it. Blegh.
