I had a dream about the ex. The dream was about us breaking up. That's it. The whole focus of it was us breaking up and me feeling like crap about it. I woke up feeling like utter shit. I don't know why, either, because it's already the case that we're broken up. I guess I try not to dwell on it and push it to the back of my mind, but that's obviously not getting rid of my feelings on the whole thing, it's just putting them somewhere else.
I don't know what's going on with me psychologically. I think I'm in denial or something, like I'm going to wake up tomorrow and we're going to be together. Maybe that's why I had that dream, because I'm in denial about it in my waking life or something (I don't know shit about dreams or psychology, obviously, but w/e.)
Being single is really not a cool thing, at least not right now. Some weird fucking German chick was hitting on me all night last night and I just couldn't handle it. It was pissing me off. The main reasons are: (1) I don't find her attractive, and (2) she is not my ex. There's my ex, a two hour drive away from me, who knows me and actually appreciates me for real, and then here's this other chick I don't know with her trifling shit. Normally I would feel flattered by incessant compliments, but last night it felt cheap and stupid and it was annoying. And another thing: every girl I meet seems like a complete retard compared to my ex. Whenever I start dating again, I'm asking bitches for IQ scores. I don't have anymore patience for idiots.
FUCK!