Call me a loser, but I feel like sharing a story about a time when I though I found the perfect someone...(feel free to post your storys)
*p.s. I'm drinking right now and listening to some music that is bringing back these feelings*
My story:
I'm not much of a 'go getter', but I try. I'm the kind of person waiting for the PERFECT one. One night at a friend's birthday party way back in April, I met a great girl(it was also her birthday too). I had a great time having drinks and sharing laughs with people. People began to leave after many drinks by them were consumed. There was only a few of us left, inclusing that girl that I met, but didn't really think about yet. I helped her down a flight of stairs as she was pretty tanked, but I just figures I'd be kind. I bought eveyone a drink and they liked that, they were all girls and thought that was nice. Things progressed and people went home and I figured I was done too...
About one week or so passes, I haven't once thought about the girls as I had a fairly negative mindset towards anyone likeking me more than some funny, nice guy. My good friend whos birthday party I was at, invited me for a coffee so I went. After a fairly standard conversation about metal etc.. he then brings up that this girl seemed to really like me and that she wanted to see me and hang out sometime! He even told me that she actually likes some metal music etc.. needless to say I was extactic, I've almost never felt such joy in my life! I then kept asking him questions about her ... and asked him to set up a meeting or something so we could hang out all together since he said she was shy. That night I couldn't sleep. i kept thinking about her and how I finally found a girl that liked me and who I liked.
A couple of days pass and I am on cloud nine, 24/7 thinking about her. So I finnally talk to this girl's sister for advice on asking the girl out for a date. I worked up enough courage and goto her workplace and ask her out! I'm super neverous talking to her, but she realizes I'm asking her out on a date, and sais YES. THats the first time anyone I asked has said yes. I told her to call me someime or send me an e-mail etc.. I leave there and drive home and I'm just happier than ever, I couldn't conecentrate on anything but her. A day or two pass and I don't hear anything from her. I then recall she has gone on a trip for a week with her sister and other family. So for a full week I'm just thinking about her and wishing I was with her.
The time somes and she finnally returns! I immediately try sending her a message online. She never answers. The next day I went to her workplace and she was there, and I asked he again when she would like to go out. i don;t remember what she said but bassically I gave her my number and told her to call when she wanted to go out somewhere. I get no calls. I send here a message like once a day for a week asking,eventually begging her to call me. NOTHING. I then start to get utterly depressed. Everynight I though about her for weeks, the summer was closing in and I never heard from her.
Things were going rough for me, as she was the only thing on my mind. I then start to ask her sister why she hasn't called, why she atleast didn't tell me she wasn't interested. I find out that she is going after some other guy. I felt like shit a few weeks after that, but atleast I stopped thinking about her. The entire summer I spent moping around and tired of being lonely. I still feel that way but I don't really think about her. What I think about is the day I heard she was interested in me and how happy I thought I was. Now its gone and thrown out the fucking window, its probably going to scar me for life, and I'm already seeing the mark. I feel like I'll never meet any other girl ever again that will like me. I just wish I had someone to spend time with, and everytime I think about it I get really upset...hence this post.
*p.s. I'm drinking right now and listening to some music that is bringing back these feelings*
My story:
I'm not much of a 'go getter', but I try. I'm the kind of person waiting for the PERFECT one. One night at a friend's birthday party way back in April, I met a great girl(it was also her birthday too). I had a great time having drinks and sharing laughs with people. People began to leave after many drinks by them were consumed. There was only a few of us left, inclusing that girl that I met, but didn't really think about yet. I helped her down a flight of stairs as she was pretty tanked, but I just figures I'd be kind. I bought eveyone a drink and they liked that, they were all girls and thought that was nice. Things progressed and people went home and I figured I was done too...
About one week or so passes, I haven't once thought about the girls as I had a fairly negative mindset towards anyone likeking me more than some funny, nice guy. My good friend whos birthday party I was at, invited me for a coffee so I went. After a fairly standard conversation about metal etc.. he then brings up that this girl seemed to really like me and that she wanted to see me and hang out sometime! He even told me that she actually likes some metal music etc.. needless to say I was extactic, I've almost never felt such joy in my life! I then kept asking him questions about her ... and asked him to set up a meeting or something so we could hang out all together since he said she was shy. That night I couldn't sleep. i kept thinking about her and how I finally found a girl that liked me and who I liked.
A couple of days pass and I am on cloud nine, 24/7 thinking about her. So I finnally talk to this girl's sister for advice on asking the girl out for a date. I worked up enough courage and goto her workplace and ask her out! I'm super neverous talking to her, but she realizes I'm asking her out on a date, and sais YES. THats the first time anyone I asked has said yes. I told her to call me someime or send me an e-mail etc.. I leave there and drive home and I'm just happier than ever, I couldn't conecentrate on anything but her. A day or two pass and I don't hear anything from her. I then recall she has gone on a trip for a week with her sister and other family. So for a full week I'm just thinking about her and wishing I was with her.
The time somes and she finnally returns! I immediately try sending her a message online. She never answers. The next day I went to her workplace and she was there, and I asked he again when she would like to go out. i don;t remember what she said but bassically I gave her my number and told her to call when she wanted to go out somewhere. I get no calls. I send here a message like once a day for a week asking,eventually begging her to call me. NOTHING. I then start to get utterly depressed. Everynight I though about her for weeks, the summer was closing in and I never heard from her.
Things were going rough for me, as she was the only thing on my mind. I then start to ask her sister why she hasn't called, why she atleast didn't tell me she wasn't interested. I find out that she is going after some other guy. I felt like shit a few weeks after that, but atleast I stopped thinking about her. The entire summer I spent moping around and tired of being lonely. I still feel that way but I don't really think about her. What I think about is the day I heard she was interested in me and how happy I thought I was. Now its gone and thrown out the fucking window, its probably going to scar me for life, and I'm already seeing the mark. I feel like I'll never meet any other girl ever again that will like me. I just wish I had someone to spend time with, and everytime I think about it I get really upset...hence this post.
) It was a platonic love by me and wrote so many letters by myself.. today I'm still keeping them and sometimes take a look of them with smile 
) Today Discouraged Ones album still hurts so much because of these years and platonic violence...
