"searing my way to perplextion"

"searing my way to perplextion"

I made a similar mistake when I listened to The Moor for the first time, "The sight of supper upon my return" :lol:

Another thread killed :muahaha:
 
He's saying that by searching for Melinda and happiness he's only leading himself to confusion, which foreshadows the later events in the story.