stefan86's offtopic random retard thread - post away!

[hexwind]

ignorance is bliss, but with knowledge comes power. How much of your existence is within your mind is decided by you. Some people have no "inner self" they live solely by the validation of others. The opposite is that everything is within your own mind and nothing else is real or matters. your choice

I believe that knowledge is the ultimate power. But going for it has led me nowhere so far, except for failure. And now it seems to me that i had more fun when i was thinking about what food I'd like to eat and so on than thinking about politics, religion, my social skills, and my future..
Sometimes I feel like the Taxi Driver guy, he's got almost nothing and he wanted to do something

 

[gt_jen]

i know how that feels. I constantly think that I have made the wrong choices and it has led me to this pit of doom. but when i think what else would i rather be doing now I cant come up with anything either.

 

[hexwind]

i know how that feels. I constantly think that I have made the wrong choices and it has led me to this pit of doom. but when i think what else would i rather be doing now I cant come up with anything either.

That's because of lack of knowledge on other stuff you could do?

 

[gt_jen]

partially yes the thought of going back to do more study makes me want to vomit. but on the other hand I have the ingrained belief that I need to have a steady job + income blah blah blah (stupid society) and I dont have enough confidence to leave everything behind and do something less structured.

 

[gt_jen]

and i like the unimportant things like food, and having somewhere to live. So i guess i need stupid money.

 

[hexwind]

yeah, yesterday I watched a show called "Welcome to my tribe", a french family hosted some people from an African who have never seen a car, train, they even thought the cat could speak (they don't even know cats !!) ! the guy was walking down street in Paris and saw a homeless man was like "wtf is wrong with him" they explained it to him and then he looked at Notre Dame and said "you have this huge building and you don't give a fuck about this homeless man?" that sumed up how much fucked up people are ! fuck, i wish i could live in a state of nature and not care abut this fucking money thing ! why should I study to get a piece of paper that MAY help me find a decent job. Fuck it !

 

[gt_jen]

i know that feeling. I guess the answer is a question. do you enjoy the topic you are studying? Not the study, but the topic. Do you want to work in that area?

 

[Purple Haze]

Im stoned like a stoner stone

 

[hexwind]

i know that feeling. I guess the answer is a question. do you enjoy the topic you are studying? Not the study, but the topic. Do you want to work in that area?

I don't know if I'll enjoy what i know or what's out there. I've enjoyed what I study (Software Engineering), but things don't seem as I think they are, i got sick of studying the same thing for the last two years and fucking FAILING although i'm great at it but I just have to know LESS than what I'm taught !! That's very demotivational actually.

 

[Purple Haze]

ETERNAL SUFFERING!

 

[gt_jen]

at the risk of sounding like a lecturer again, maybe you need to study smarter instead of harder. passing exams or whatever is unfortunately more about knowing what to learn instead of actually learning the topic. did that make sense?

 

[hexwind]

at the risk of sounding like a lecturer again, maybe you need to study smarter instead of harder. passing exams or whatever is unfortunately more about knowing what to learn instead of actually learning the topic. did that make sense?

Exactly !
I also thought spending more time learning other stuff than computing is a smart idea, that obviously consumed some of my time that I could spend studying.

 

[gt_jen]

learning other stuff will help you irl, but Uni is such a strange environment, it would end up holding you back. fucked up but true. I could go through a whole list of beat the uni system tips but you probably know it all anyway

 

[hexwind]

learning other stuff will help you irl, but Uni is such a strange environment, it would end up holding you back. fucked up but true. I could go through a whole list of beat the uni system tips but you probably know it all anyway

Yeah it is ! My choice is made, the only thing to overcome this is to go through with patience ! I can't wait to get back to studying to prove to those motherfuckers who the fuck I am !

 

[Purple Haze]

yeah! you know what you are!! A TERRORIST! JIHAD!

 

[hexwind]

indeed !!

 

[gt_jen]

Thats a great attitude!! seriously!!! Also, try and make friends with your lecturers and tutors, really it works. If they can put a face to a name and they have a sympathetic view of you then you are more likely to not fail by little margins. Talk to them one on one, ask questions. Fake interest in them if you have to and seek their guidance. you never know what little bits of info will slip out.

 

[hexwind]

that's what my father told me actually ! I'm not the type of students who want contact with tutors, even when my prof asks a question and I know the answer, i just don't say it and wait for someone else do so.. but I have to change this attitude tho.
Thanks for the advices Jen !!
I have to eat something adn get some sleep, good night people of the earth

 

[PowerBlade]

Good morning

I'm off to school

 

[DarkGift]