I am a HUGE Bodom fan but not once have i heard that Alexi self harmed when he was younger but i recently read about it in the Metal Hammer review. I myself need help with self harm (god knows if I'm depressed, how you tell?) but do you reckon he had trouble playing with it? I don't normally have much of a problem playing but it does feel bloody weird and I've only hit my vein once and it was a damn fine cut. My life ambition is to play like Alexi, do i really need to stop cutting to be as good as him? So people, help?!