Hell Awaits Us All
New Metal Member
So in other words, your Father moved across the world in an attempt to give you a better life, and all you can do it bitch about not having the biggest house on the block?
I'm sure your Father thought that same way as you do. The "I know I'm going to succeed because I'm motivated" mentality, but sometimes that's just not enough.
this is the only good thing he's done in his life, and in this regard I will always be grateful. But it's not fucking enough, it's been 9 years since we moved here and we seem to be perpetually stuck in this position.
Honestly, I hate how life is right now. I come home, and there is no happiness in my house. My father is stressed out because he has 12 k in debts with 3 k in the bank, my mom is stressed out because she can't seem to find any decent employment anywhere. My sister is never home because she hates being here
I want to be a carefree kid, I hate having to worry about bills and payments and shit and possibly having to get another job so I can early 20 - 25 k a year and put in 1,400 a month in my dad's account monthly.
he really is trying, he is doing these different projects with different companies and also is talking about starting his own projects. But he's been feeding me this bullshit for years and years, and I already fucking know he's going to fail. It's no longer a question of whether or not he will fail, it seems inevitable that he will fail.
goddamn it, I know bills and shit are the "real world", I don't have any problem with "the real world". I worked nearly 50 hours last week and over 45 the week before, the "real world" doesn't scare me at all. But can't I face this shit when I am 22 23 or 24 like most everybody here, instead of facing it when I am fucking 18 (and just turned 18)?
man, I dunno perhaps he is going to succeed with one of these projects/plans/whatever the fuck, but considering how he has continuously failed and failed and failed over and over and over again, I am not even remotely optimistic in any way shape or form.
at this point, the only thing I ask for is that we do not go into bankruptcy before I turn 20/21 and have a chance to move out