im fucking scared

[Will Bozarth]

lately my mind's been very very fucked up.... like... shit that happened in my past few years has been coming back to haunt me and right now my mind is completely fucked up and i can barely think straight, its a mixture of high depression, pissed-off, and whatever the fuck else there is, sorry, ranting

 

[Poison God]

Just go with the flow bro.

 

[Will Bozarth]

i have been, i dont knwo what the fuck is goin on or whatever the uck, im always fucking derpressed or whatever and i cant stop it

 

[Poison God]

Hmmmmmmmmmm....well just take personal satisfaction in making me very happy by allowing me access to these Nevermore vids! You are the man! What is the Nevermore vid standing on its own? (i.e. the one not in a folder)

 

[dreaming neon darkspot]

Just listen to Nevermore and all of your problems will drift far,far away until the cd's over...then just pop another one in.That's what I do,I've been getting pretty fucked up too.A lot more angry and aggressive towards my parents and my friends and ppl in general.I dunno,maybe it's just something about being a teenager,everyone claims that when you're around the ages of 13-about 15 or so,you're always pissed off and messed up emotinally,which is true.I just listen to heavy metal and write and that helps a lot.

 

[Will Bozarth]

oh, thats just a little clip of This Sacrament, tnx, deleting now

 

[Poison God]

Originally posted by dead6skin6mask6
oh, thats just a little clip of This Sacrament, tnx, deleting now

Oh ok

 

[Will Bozarth]

dnds, thats what ive been doing for the past year and a half, its gotten so bad that i had suicidal thoughts back in November, and the only thing to drop me was meeting new rriends at thr school i transferred to.... and usually In FLames does the trick for me in this situation and its not working, neither is Nevermore, i tried everything i could, i even did free-writing something and it turned out very depressive and shit

Pain is flowing through my head
Please help ease my pains which I feel
I've never harmed any single person
I wish this sorrow were not real

My mind is rushing fast as lightning
I'm dreaming that it will all end soon
The tears in which I am shedding mean nothing
I hope this pain will end soon

My mind is not thinking straight
I am in a fury of emotions now
I cannot awaken from this nightmare
If you know how to stop it please tell how

I wish I could stop all this pain
I wish i could stop all this agony
All I know right now is there's nothing left
I dont want to continue living this nightmare

I need reassurance as to who I am
I am slipping from my own reality
My mind cannot handle the truth
I need to conquer it all



that was just randomly typing whatever popped in my head at the moment

 

[Will Bozarth]

er, to stop me*

 

[Poison God]

Watch Clerks: Tha Animated Series on DvD......that will cheer you up

 

[ThePhilosopher]

You could try a psychiatrist or go on Prozac or something. Not meant to be insulting, just a thought.

I myself haven't been too well since one of my long time friends commited suicide back in May (at 15 years old, can you believe that), but music usually keeps me going.

 

[Will Bozarth]

what exactly is prozac

 

[ThePhilosopher]

by the way, where in NJ are you?

 

[Will Bozarth]

Deptford, near Camden

 

[Poison God]

Madison, NJ in the hizzouse

 

[ThePhilosopher]

I'm from Rutherford, a few miles west of NYC.

Prozac is a "mood equalizer". Its been used for quite a while now to treat depression and I've heard its effective. There's also another one called Zyrtec or something like that, that's supposed to fix a chemical imbalance that supposedly causes depression.

If you've felt suicidal before it wouldn't be bad if you tried to get some help.

Nevermore rules.

 

[Will Bozarth]

ill try some of that, btw, ive been to East Rutherford for MerrY Mayhem

 

[[_NevermorE_]]

hey dsm.... don't get yourself into those medicines! the answer is in the mind! according to what thephilosopher says, half of the teenagers would be into fucking sanitarium

 

[Poison God]

Originally posted by dead6skin6mask6
ill try some of that, btw, ive been to East Rutherford for MerrY Mayhem

Nice

 

[Will Bozarth]

Originally posted by [_NevermorE_]
half of the teenagers would be into fucking sanitarium

????