You're a complete head case. But, for the hell of it, let's go through this to clear it up.
My Arms, Your Hearse is a concept album. The song lyrics, througout the album, add up to a story.
White summer
The album's story unfolds throughout the period of a year... this song represents summer.
So far I have gone to see you again.
Hiding your face in the palm of your hands.
Finding solace in the words I do despise.
[font="]...refers to the fact that after the character's death, his body was obviously cremated. His lover is holding the urn in her hands.
Remember, the concept of the album is that this guy dies, and comes back as a ghost to watch over his lover, who was in love with another man... and he deals with the emotions of that as well as coming to terms with his own death and then moves on. Stop trying to see something that isnt there.[/font]