How do you look at pictures of classmates, then?
Stupid Greys-esque rant below.
I broke up with my girlfriend yesterday. It was five months, but she was a lot more dependent than I thought. She wasn't even in school today. I'm not gonna go for other girls until I leave the country this summer. I just don't want to deal with all of the crap that comes with a girl wanting a relationship with me. I suppose I could try casual sex, but I probably wouldn't get off and would have to pretend I did after a few minutes so I can leave.
This is freaking me out. Entire forum single within a month I predict.
This is freaking me out. Entire forum single within a month I predict.
I told my counciler who's a woman one time that have this habit of judging females by other females. And she told me that mary is not jessica or something along those lines. I think as of right now this might be the most usefull important thing someone has said to me my entire life. Unless she's wrong and lied.
my best friend is making me hate women. i keep trying to push it out of my mind and think "no she's your best friend you can meet other girls and losing her would be stupid, get over it" but i seriously can't and i've had feelings for her since i was 14. i know she doesn't feel the same way and though i try to conceal them so as for it to not be weird she obviously knows from a very few times over these years there've been slip ups or signs and yet she somehow manages to crush my feelings all the time and make it painfully obvious that she's not interested even when i'm not hitting on her (like when something would happen to her and we'd be talking online and i'd basically console her and she'd blatantly push it away as if it were a comeon when it wasn't and i was just trying to be a good friend to someone whos fucking sad). It's fucking brutal because sometimes the way she'll talk about stuff or respond to things is so ridiculously crushing and cold making it seem almost as if she's trying to stab me in the heart to kill my feelings for fun since it's obviously past the point of me knowing nothing would change so her doing that accomplishes nothing.
Something's gotta change soon because this is fucking me up seriously and ripping my emotions to shreds no matter how hard i try to put them aside and get rid of them constanttllyy. i've tried meeting other girls too but never really get anywhere serious or i fucked it up or my thoughts about her got in the way. hopefully i do meet someone great and can forget about it or something will happen because i seriously fucking HATE women with a passion and getting angrier every day. fucking women.