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[Enemy242]

Wow thanks you guys I really do appreciate the support. I'm feeling better and starting to accept it and feel better; there's still a huge void but by pushing myself even harder to accomplish my goals (which he loved and supported me in all of them, no matter if it was my music, fitness career, school, whatever) I feel better knowing that I'm doing something he would've been proud of and would've made him happy while at the same time doing it for myself. Tomorrow is the funeral which is going to be a huge bummer having all the emotions brought back but then again having the whole family and everyone who cared about him there remembering him and keeping him alive is going to be a great moment for everyone I think; especially those of us in my family who have been hit really hard by it.

I feel for all of you who have had a loved one pass on and I hope those of you who haven't cherish every moment you have with them; as cheesy and lame as it sounds after an experience like this I really do feel much closer to my entire family and value life and everything in it so much more. It's a shame something like this had to happen to make that extra push but looking at the silver lining really makes everything feel a lot better.

also to kinda break the sadness of this topic: i bought a pack of 8 small fun sized butterfingers the other day and holy shit these are good. i don't know why i'd ever buy a full candy bar again; you get to enjoy the taste far more often since its broken up into smaller pieces which enables you to not just go around eating huge candy bars constantly. brilliant, evil, and fucking amazing.

 

[Brooks]

Good to hear, A. Your Dad believed in you, and I'm sure you've already done him proud. Fun-sized chocolate bullshit is boss.

I'm sitting in San Francisco International Airport, waiting at the gate for my flight to New York, more than a little disappointed that I wasn't groped by the TSA. They could've at least slapped my butt.

Crossword time.

 

[WhiteBeastofWotan]

How long are you in NY for?

 

[Super Mahrio]

Wow, sorry to hear that Enemy! *hugs* condolences.

It snowed lots.

 

[Det Som Engang Var]

Watched my Dad die after a battle with cancer yesterday, quite possibly one of the most distressing things I've ever witnessed. After a while when it was apparent he was just waiting to die and shallowly breathing while spazzing I wanted to punch the nurse in the face and scream at her JUST GIVE HIM EVERYTHING, MORPHINE, ATIVAN, FLEXIRIL, JUST LET HIM GO IN A VELVET SLEEP but they had procedures and all sorts of bullshit. I know its irrational but fuck it just made me mad. I know he wasn't in pain or anything and having his whole family by his side is what he would've wanted but still it all just infuriated me.

Really fucked me up seeing that and him in that condition but I feel a bit better now and even though a lot of it is probably still repressed, I feel it pushes me forward to do everything he'd want me to do. When he saw that my band had a small piece in Terrorizer he was overjoyed and the news of my new jobs in personal training and future success made him really happy so I'm going to push even harder to accomplish everything and more. I'll be a physical therapist, top personal trainer, frontman of a huge metal band; I'm already on my way so it's not just a stupid dream, with this drive I know I can do it for me and to make him proud. R.I.P Dad.

Mine died of Cancer back in May. You're doing a great job dealing with this man, it's gonna get harder before it gets easier but I know you can get through it.

It does sound cheesy to spend every minute with a person you can, but it's true. I'm ashamed to say during my fathers last week of life I was so busy with work I only called him once. We spoke for a second, he told me they were doing test and if I could call him back, which I did not.

Part of me still thinks I killed him. You're were a great son and a great person to be with him until the end.

 

[Brooks]

How long are you in NY for?

Until the Tuesday after Thanksgiving. Will be in the city from Thursday till I go. Any unmissable shows this upcoming weekend?

I think we must drink.

 

[WhiteBeastofWotan]

No shows that I know of. But I'd be up for goin up to NYC the sunday after thanksgiving to get some drank.

 

[Brooks]

Purple or otherwise, I'm down!

I am going to a 'classy' dinner of sorts with fam Sunday eve, but afterwards, slosh & mosh!

 

[Det Som Engang Var]

I'm starting to hope Will was right, this season of Dexter is awful.

Quin needs to die. I fucking hated this guy right from the start.

Deb needs to die, in real life too for being such an annoying actress.

Lumen needs to die. Or go away.

 

[WhiteBeastofWotan]

I've been diggin the new season.

 

[ShadowsWithin]

Same actually, next episode is gonna be awesome. the ending last episode I was like WHAAA??

also dexter beating the shit out of the guy was pretty lol

 

[replicated]

Does anyone else thinks Deb looks a like a horse? I think she might be a tranny too. It's totally lacking in the woman's assets department. No tits, no boobs. At least every woman has one or the other.

 

[stefan86]

I think the first four-five eps was pretty slow. It's been intense the last couple of weeks though. I just want Quinn on that goddamn table

 

[Det Som Engang Var]

Agreed. And she gives me the impression that she would smell disgusting between her legs, which are always open to any man she comes across.

 

[Det Som Engang Var]

I just want Quinn on that goddamn table

 

[WhiteBeastofWotan]

Purple or otherwise, I'm down!

I am going to a 'classy' dinner of sorts with fam Sunday eve, but afterwards, slosh & mosh!

Yeah, I really want to go to the Ginger Man bar. The draught list is fucking boner worthy.

 

[Will Bozarth]

This season started out very slowly, but after the last 2 episodes, it's finally picking up (after what... 8 episodes into the season? lol).

Nothing can top Season 4, so I'm trying to deal with the loss of Trinity the best I can. I kinda want Dexter to get caught, so i don't have to worry about whether or not Season 6 will be good.

 

[Will Bozarth]

Does anyone else thinks Deb looks a like a horse? I think she might be a tranny too. It's totally lacking in the woman's assets department. No tits, no boobs. At least every woman has one or the other.

Well, Michael C. Hall wound up marrying her, so...

 

[Will Bozarth]

On another note, The Walking Dead is getting pretty badass!

 

[WhiteBeastofWotan]

Yeah, Will. Walking Dead has been GREAT. More or less faithful in story to the graphic novel series, but definitely emotionally. Did you ever get around to reading more of it?