Captain Beard
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- Sep 6, 2001
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well i officially felt worse than i have in years last night (for many reasons) and i've decided its time to stop lying to myself and go sober. this isn't a john post so i won't be claiming miracles like stopping my medically prescribed things like anxiety medication and add medication but everything else that's been controlling my brain for me is now outta here. i have a feeling the next 2 weeks will be worse than any hell but i'm sure after it's all said and done and i go on with my life it'll be worth it.
I'm aware I've made a douche out of myself here...just please understand it was all the drugs I was on. I'm not an attention whore who throws pity parties like that, it's just what xanax mixed with alcohol does to you.
I wish you luck man. I'm quite depressed myself.
I'm leaving the country in about 3 hours. Cheers peeps!
I've been binging all week. I was doing really good this year and then I kind of stopped caring. It's not that I'm addicted to xanax, I'm just addicted to the relief of anxiety it gives me. Woke up in a pile of throw up this morning, that hasn't happened in 2 years. Pretty sure it was from mixing wine with beer, though.
Out of the two of us, you will definitely make it. I have complete faith in you.
<3 <3I'm leaving the country in about 3 hours. Cheers peeps!