Thanks, DW. I understand what you mean. And I definitly do need to learn a trade of some sort.
I feel like I have a late start on life since I threw away so many years with drugs, but now I'll actually be able to save up money for an education and vehicle since this new apartment will be so much cheaper. I have considered Canda, though I don't know anything about it. I'm sure Sweden is great, too.
I really hate the term, "get an education". It's so vague and utterly useless. Having "an education" and being an intelligent, successful human being are two completely different things. "An education" now means going to college to study so you can make more money; it has nothing to do with enriching your mind. What I'm talking about is a
trade, a skill set that is inherent to you wherever you go. For me, it's a strong grasp of languages. For others it may be mechanical, electrical, medical, etc. You need to find out what you're good at and capitalize on that. Learn as much as you can and get as much experience as you can it can follow you wherever you go. You won't be able to bus tables for a living in a foreign country unless you're ok with living under a bridge, in a car, or in a homeless shelter.
You should set your sights on a career, something you're good at and enjoy doing. Something legal. You have a very strong work ethic and would be invaluable to many employers, you just have to decide what it is you're going to do.
The good news is in Europe things are done differently. Many times the state will pay for your vocational apprenticeship because OJT doesn't really exist here. You are afforded an opportunity to hone your skills almost free of charge as a social benefit here. However, you still have to decide what it is you're going to do. This isn't about majoring in something in college, this is about putting all of your energy into a real, tangible career. You need to develop your skills because these days university means absolutely NOTHING. Employers want results, they want experience, and they want it now. Some employers will even pay you to bootstrap educational programs, all the while you're just going to classes a few times per week to learn about specific things.
An example would be Caterpillar. They are desperate, and I mean DESPERATE for hands-on experience and expertise. They just sent my cousin to Germany for a month to a certification seminar, and he's never been outside the US before. There are opportunities everywhere, you just have to take advantage of them. Find what it is you're good at and bust your ass learning everything you can about it.
There are lawyers who have never been to law school; they just studied their asses off and took the bar exam on their own. You can do this, you just need the will.