Steve (Fretsaflame) - read here, and give me answers

[Will Bozarth]

"Will - fuck you, you have no idea what real depression is"


1. Where the fuck did that come from? Did I attack you? No
2. How long have you known me personally to make that judgement?
3. Real depression = being depressed for NO REASON AT ALL during periods where you SHOULDNT BE DEPRESSED. At every moment during my days, I hate myself. I plot out ways to kill myself in the fucking messiest and most shocking ways I can think of. I have a girlfriend that cares about me and I care about. I have friends that mean the world to me. I deserve none of what I have. I do not think I am a good person. I do not think I am worth anything. The only reason I havent killed myself yet is because of MUSIC. I haven't killed myself because my idol who saved my life on numerous occations through his lyrics is becoming a friend. He thinks I'm cool, and that shows something.

I can go in to a gigantic story starting from when I was 7 years old and list every name and action everyone has done to me since. I can name you the list of friends that I've had, and every one of them but 5 have stabbed me in the back. Those 5 friends I have right now. I expect them to stab me in the back, because I know that there is no real reason at all for them to see anything in me to like. I do not understand why my girlfriend wants to go out with me, and I cannot see why she says the sweet things she does say.

I demand your explanation for your moronic sentence.

 

[FretsAflame]

"Will - fuck you, you have no idea what real depression is"


1. Where the fuck did that come from? Did I attack you? No
2. How long have you known me personally to make that judgement?
3. Real depression = being depressed for NO REASON AT ALL during periods where you SHOULDNT BE DEPRESSED. At every moment during my days, I hate myself. I plot out ways to kill myself in the fucking messiest and most shocking ways I can think of. I have a girlfriend that cares about me and I care about. I have friends that mean the world to me. I deserve none of what I have. I do not think I am a good person. I do not think I am worth anything. The only reason I havent killed myself yet is because of MUSIC. I haven't killed myself because my idol who saved my life on numerous occations through his lyrics is becoming a friend. He thinks I'm cool, and that shows something.

I can go in to a gigantic story starting from when I was 7 years old and list every name and action everyone has done to me since. I can name you the list of friends that I've had, and every one of them but 5 have stabbed me in the back. Those 5 friends I have right now. I expect them to stab me in the back, because I know that there is no real reason at all for them to see anything in me to like. I do not understand why my girlfriend wants to go out with me, and I cannot see why she says the sweet things she does say.

I demand your explanation for your moronic sentence.

Nah buddy, take a breath, I didn't mean it like that, it was a vague reference to my own depression

whereas yours is intangible mine is very, very real. You might want to stop imagining things... sometimes it's the good people that get it the worst, you dig me? If you need to talk or simply want to wallow in joint self loathing, drop me a line on aim .

p.s. - you should know that that wasn't serious - im hardly ever fucking serious, jebus h. christo buddy

 

[Will Bozarth]

as said in the AIm window... apology accepted

 

[FretsAflame]

as said in the AIm window... apology accepted

\m/ \m/

now we can go back to spamming the fuck out of this forum - while at the same time being jointly depressed

 

[dreaming neon darkspot]

Hearing people talk about their own depression really freaks me out, for some reason... It just feels like, after all of the times I've tried telling my mother that I think I need help because the self-loathing I feel and social anxieties I have, and her telling blaming the music I listen to or the people I associate with, or my lack of faith in God... like I've adopted that on view when it comes to my own emotions. So I'll feel depressed or angry or suicidal on my own, but then I'll hear other people say "I hate myself and I'm depressed for no reason and I wish I could die"... I'll associate with that and I'll connect those thoughts with things I've thought so many times before... and then I'll "attack" myself for it... I'll be telling myself "See... everyone else feels like this, there's nothing special about how you feel. You don't need help for a fucking thing, so just shut up" or I'll just convince myself that I'm so easily influenced by outside forces (music, other people, etc) that my emotions and thoughts and moods will readily comply with anything like that that I can associate with...

Whatever, just rambling. Sorry.

~Laura

 

[neal]

suicide is lame. dont do that. i dont want to sound condescending or something, but when you get older you see that all your high school problems and dramas were bullshit and you shouldnt worry about them...and if you really do like 'hate yourself' all the time perhaps you should talk to a psychiotrist or whatever. and if you get one that doesnt help and is an idiot get another one. im sure they're not all quacks.
-neal

 

[FretsAflame]

suicide is lame. dont do that. i dont want to sound condescending or something, but when you get older you see that all your high school problems and dramas were bullshit and you shouldnt worry about them...and if you really do like 'hate yourself' all the time perhaps you should talk to a psychiotrist or whatever. and if you get one that doesnt help and is an idiot get another one. im sure they're not all quacks.
-neal

this man speaks much sense - listen to him

suicide is a cop out

 

[lizard]

I get so depressed sometimes I want to rip my arm off and beat myself to death with it, only after having wild animal monkey sex with my wife and robbing a bank, because I've always imagined robbing a bank would be a rush as long as you don't get shot by the police or put the dye pack in your pants and have it blow up.

hahahaha

 

[FretsAflame]

I get so depressed sometimes I want to rip my arm off and beat myself to death with it, only after having wild animal monkey sex with my wife and robbing a bank, because I've always imagined robbing a bank would be a rush as long as you don't get shot by the police or put the dye pack in your pants and have it blow up.

hahahaha

lol

if you rob a bank - do it like they did in the family guy

 

[PlatypusJesus]

Hey guys....cheer up.......how about we play a nice friendly game of Russian Roulette?

 

[lizard]

OR~~

rob a convenience store like Nicholas Cage did in Raising Arizona...

"I'll take these Huggies...and whatever cash you got on hand..."

 

[Will Bozarth]

that movie rules

 

[lizard]

it does. its one of my all time favorites, I have probably watched it dozens of times.

"son, you got a panty on yo head!"

 

[FretsAflame]

that movie rules

hahaha yeah it does

 

[Lillitu]

suicide is lame. dont do that. i dont want to sound condescending or something, but when you get older you see that all your high school problems and dramas were bullshit and you shouldnt worry about them...and if you really do like 'hate yourself' all the time perhaps you should talk to a psychiotrist or whatever. and if you get one that doesnt help and is an idiot get another one. im sure they're not all quacks.
-neal

That's mostly true. You may still be depressed, but lots of it goes away. Don't ever believe that the high school years are "the best times of your life". That's one great big fat LIE! I graduated high school and never looked back. I hated it and my life has gotten immeasurably better since. I still don't want to ever have to live hs over and I'm over 15 years out.

uh yeah, off my soapbox now.

 

[Reverand Joint Smoker]

That's mostly true. You may still be depressed, but lots of it goes away. Don't ever believe that the high school years are "the best times of your life". That's one great big fat LIE! I graduated high school and never looked back. I hated it and my life has gotten immeasurably better since. I still don't want to ever have to live hs over and I'm over 15 years out.

uh yeah, off my soapbox now.

Bravo!, same here. HS and all the false drama that went with it was the shittiest time of my life. The day I got my diploma and walked off the stage was the happiest of my life. It was so fake. Almost nothing I was there for pertained to real life, except for a handfull of classes. I was a metalhead surrounded by 2200 preppies. It was no wonder I locked myself in my room everynight and parcticed guitar and/or worked.

 

[Super Mahrio]

Well Will, look at my sig!

I was depressed when i was younger because i caught alot of hell in school...there was a time where i didnt have any friends and i listened to Nirvana all day..sure that can make someone sad..lol but i got over it after a time...teens get depressed because of their raging hormones and many other things going on in their bodies during that time...then stuff happens and they feel the need to be sad about it..its a natural occurrance of life and it passes....for the most part...most people dont realize that...I had some fun in highschool after i got the hell out of regular highschool and did the independant study thing..that was a blast! but i wasnt around the crap that goes on anymore so it helped me quite a bit to see who are my real friends..give it time...

 

[FretsAflame]

Bravo!, same here. HS and all the false drama that went with it was the shittiest time of my life. The day I got my diploma and walked off the stage was the happiest of my life. It was so fake. Almost nothing I was there for pertained to real life, except for a handfull of classes. I was a metalhead surrounded by 2200 preppies. It was no wonder I locked myself in my room everynight and parcticed guitar and/or worked.

amen - same here.

 

[Will Bozarth]

tnx mah hehe