I had one of this last night. I was REALLY sad ( f*ck HER /but I LOVE HER )
and got wasted (5 beers then 250ml of Vodka)
, not really. Just delayed the pain for a day.. . My first dream since:
It was really nice outside. One of those enlightening sunny summer days, when all you want is to stay outside listening to the birds singing with the one you love aside you. I was walking across the road with a warmth feeling covering my body. I was not alone. Three were with me. I recognised them as friends from highscool. They were silent. They were talking beetween them but were silent for me. This didn't matter. It felt good. It felt like I was going somewere. Like I had a destination to reach.
Passed a roadsign - PATHWAY - it read- I didn't know what it ment. I could see the letters but I didn't understand. There were trees on each side of the road. They had no leafs and no singing was coming from them. They need not to speak. The wind was silent too.
Three minutes later I reached a hotel. It was gray. The windows were gray, the roof, all. IT was a whole. A massive figure dominating it's surroundings. All but it became fuzzy. Blured. My friends had left me.
I am alone.
IT has a name: LOST or LUST - meaningless to me. It changes every step I make. I enter. I see someone. A girl. A woman. A beautifull woman. She seems to know me. I look at her but don't know who she is. Strange... she looks familiar. She smiles. I KNOW that smile. Those eyes... her eyes, they smile too. I smile back. She says something. I don't understand. The women looks at me. She doesn't speak. She wants me. We must go at her house tonight. She loves me? I want! I love her.
I have to go outside with her. There is a walley - it holds a black car. I can't see inside. The black driver window of the black car glides down. I know there is a woman inside.
We go in the valley. She, the other one has black hair. It matches her glasses. The one I love,... I don't know what color is her hair. All I see is her eyes. They are brown. I love her...
She, the other one looks at me. She wants me. She wants
her also. I can sense her eyes. They burn me. She will come with us at the house.
I leave.
I hear my brother's voice. It's coming from the hotel. He is inside. He screams. My heart saddens. It breaks. I know something I don't know yet. It is denied to me. She is denied to me...My brother!
I rush to the hotel. The door doesn't open. I scream. I scream. I scream. I scream.. my lungs have no air... still I scream. It comes from within. My soul is screaming. The door opens. I enter. 'Walk the line' it says. There is a line on the floor. I follow. The corridor ends in a saloon. It's like a dream. There are beds on each side. I can't see their faces! I run then suddenly I stop. She is on the a bed. There is someone, a man under her. She is 'riding' him. They finished. I can see her's, it's so beautifull... like a flower, it opens to me. The smell, It's haunting... I turn my head and see that in the beds there are kids. They are crying. The oldest one couldn't have more than 10. I HAVE to run.. I must.. I know I have to.... this is just a gas station on the road..
I am outside.
There are people on bicicles on the road. They don't seem to go anywhere, they just are. They're laughing. I need a bicicle. I am tired. I'm walking "THE PATHWAY". It can't be too far. Someone's coming! I have to get his bicicle! he passes through me, I can't seem to see his face. Does he have a face? He was running.
I'm not far away.. I can sense it.. i can see it.. the sign... IT's a town i'm going to. I try to see the sign.. before the town.
I hear voices.. they are my friends.. they have found me! We must turn back they tell me. They don't speak. I turn my head..
the sign.. it reads
HELL
i wake up.
"What is it in my eyes, a piece of broken glass, is this the time I should be on my knees?"
so, what this means is???? I have a pretty good idea... I want your opinions too.
also, I'm thinking of writing a movie script based on another dream I had. This Is NOTHING compared to that one. In both size and depth. I don't have time to tell you that one... still who knows.. maybe another time. Which one of those you like the most - as a title:
a) Love.Fear.Nightmare.
b) Love.Fear.Regret.
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