I haven't been too close to someone committing suicide, but the brother of a close friend of mine killed himself, and so did the father of another friend of mine.... The friend of mine who lost her father is, in a way, better off without him, she thinks, even though she, of course, miss him a lot. He had thretened with killing himself a lot of times before he actually did it. As for my friend who lost her brother..... She and the rest of her family were shocked when it happened, and none of them had ever thought smth like that would ever happend. They were all crushed, but especilaly the parents. But still...... However bad they feel..... They haevn't committed suicide themseles, and you don't just do that without any reason. Then think about how that boy must have felt...... He actually did it! And not in way so that he had big chances of surviving, but he drowned himself in a place where no-one would come for days, at a time when no-one wuld miss him for hours. .....I guess I just relate more to the ones who committ suicide than the ones who are left behind..... And really, the ones who kill themselves are the ones I fell the most sorry for......