I'm just wondering what happens to you when you drink. Not when you drink so much that you're shitfaced and throw up - just drink a bit. I find that there's some concepts and aims I don't express to certain people when sober. I'm not talking about declarations of love to unwilling partners, it's a general concept. And I hate that because life should be more or less equal whether you're drinking or not. My, I'm resembling some of the shady Le Carré characters.