@incendiare, I coudn´t resist any longer
I have to say something that might help you if your starting to get depressed. Li was on to it as well...and it´s positive thinking. It helped me alot..not that I was depressed before I learnt it. but one feel much happier!!
when I decided to go 100% for my sport my coach (friend) talked with me about pos. thinking for 10 min and it changed my life completetly. it helps in real life situations too, not just in sports or wherever..
pos thinking doesnt mean you have to go around and laugh all the time, but as it sounds, you turn your thoughts when things is getting to feel hard and evrything sucks to something positive. he gave me some examples:
1) people at gym, they go there and start doing push ups with heavy wieghts, and they decide to do 10 push ups, when they have reached 8 they think "it´s not heavy, it´s not that hard...". this is negative, because yes...it is hard, it is supposed to be hard, coz otherwise you wont get any better! and it feels great when it´s hard and you are doing it! next time you´ll do 11!
2) people running and they say, "now it´s only 2 km to go" negative, it´s like you want to get things over with, pos thinking would be let´s give everything those last 2 km!! it´s fun to run!! (if you go out and run you do it coz u like it hehe)
I think you get the point
it´s worth trying if you are feeling alittle bit down....