Depression does funny shit to people eh?

[GarethSE]

So my friend's been depressed as fuck for, i dunno, 6 months or so. just been diagnosed with bipolar disorder too, so funtimes all around to him, but for about 5 of those months, every attempt ive made to speak to him has been met with "i don't care."
so today he's all like "dude i made some music" (because its perfectly okay for him to spark up a conversation out the blue about something I could just as easily say "i don't care" to.
so i says "protip: if it isnt flowing too well, just plug in and hit record, whatever comes out will likely be pretty fucken awesome."
so he says "protip: stop talking to me."
and i just think "this is the last fucking time"
told him he's dead to me until he sorts out his ridiculous fucking double standards, in which case he's perfectly welcome back into my life, then blocked him.

spent months trying to be a supportive friend, because i know full well how it feels to wake up every morning, not wanting to get up, move, do anything at all because it'll msot likely make me feel like shit.
the first 3 years of the last 4 or so i spent feeling like that, i know full fucking well and the last thing id want is to see anyone else feeling like that, and he'd have had my ear or a shoulder to fucking cry on if he wanted it, and i said so, but every time, its met with "i dont care."

i mean, all i fucking see on facebook from him is "why wont this feeling go away" none fucking stop, and i go on and post an angry facebook status just now and he posts a really fucking sarcastic one in reply.
perfectly okay for him to bitch and whine and fucking moan about how much his life fucking sucks 99% of the fucking time, but i post ONE pissed off facebook status in months and its met with that, fuck him. fuck him and his pit of fucking depression. he can fucking hang himself for all i fucking care, one less whiny cunt on this planet isnt going to harm anyone.
FUCK him.




rant over
needed to vent

 

[P-E]

I can basically understand that as my father's been the same with my mother for a very long time. Now he's fine. (And I truly hope your friend will be some day)

I'm pretty sure you did the right thing man. Just cut him off your life for a while if he won't accept help/support, etc. and just pisses you off.

 

[DanLights]

some people just don´t want to be helped man, and you ain´t his friggin shrink to have to deal with that crap, so yeah let him hang himself. Whiny suicidal dudes are cowards, life can be so fucking amazing and they just concentrate on the bad shit

 

[GarethSE]

i have some sympathy for him in the way that i understand how fucking monumental it is to even drag yourself out of bed in the morning, let alone force yourself to see some positivity in life when you're like that, but help from those close to you seems to be the first thing most people want
i mean that seems like its what he DOES want
if anyone else is nice to him, he's nice as fuck back to them, and as far as i can tell, i havent said shit to him to offend him, just turned a cunt against me one day, fucking ridiculous.

 

[SocialNumb]

Wait your mad about an emoticon? or did I not get it?

 

[SocialNumb]

Oh, ok. He is just being a dick to you. Just don't talk to him for a while. Don't get mad about it either, it's self defeating. Useless emotion given the situation.

 

[GarethSE]

im chill right now
im good at removing people from my life
pretty remorseless cos im a cunt
i just needed a rant first

 

[Metaltastic]

I gotta say dude, I've gone through a seriously deep pit of depression (back in Freshman year of college, late 05-06), and I mean BAD, but I was always incredibly conscious of trying my hardest to never take it out on people and never bitch and whine or anything about it, but rather always putting on the brave face because I knew it was the right thing to do. I suppose it really stemmed from my Dad, who's always been prone to stress, and when I was little and he was gigging (as a trumpeter) regularly and under a lot of muscle pain because the tension from playing really hurt him, he very often was just very reserved, quiet, and unforthcoming, which I interpreted as passive aggression to me as if I had done something wrong, so there's a fair amount of bitterness there (though I don't really dwell on it too much, cuz we get along great now).

The point, though, is people have no right to take out their own shit on others, so fuck him utterly! I've cut someone out of my life before, and it was definitly for the best! This isn't Kian by any chance, is it?

 

[GarethSE]

fuck no i love kian dearly and as far as i am concerned always will do
he's like
one of the happiest people on earth
even though he's had to sell like 100's of rare vinyls, loads of collectable dvds, all this shit he's bought that he fucking treasures and rarely has more than a few quid to live on, he's the happiest guy in the world, dudes got a heart of gold

its this guy called alex. who has been frequently prone to spots of depression, but he's never treated anyone like this during any of it before.

 

[Mutant]

Purify your body and mind with Yoga.

It works.

Really.

 

[GarethSE]

i am like
about as flexible as sheet metal
believe it

currently purifying my mind and body with some filthy avant-garde shit
it works.

really.

 

[JeffTD]

Honestly, it's probably not worth the hassle of being his friend. Never die of another man's misery. It is incredibly infectious, and it's already spread a bit to you, with this post as proof.

 

[Chryst Krispies]

When I get depressed I get the same way. I know what you're saying, and for me when I say "leave me alone." I mean it. I don't like to to be talked to or fucked with I just want to sit with myself. Just steer clear for a while. I do feel bad for the people I say this too, cause it's usually my dad, and I don't want to be like that but it just happens.

 

[GarethSE]

theres a line between "dont talk to me, im in a bad mood"
which i can respect
and basically cock slapping you

 

[Chryst Krispies]

Not with me, I see no lines when I get bad.

 

[Pedro Teixeira]

I actually understand him, although I would never ever be as rude as him, I actually feel a bit emotional about the real friends I have, it's in this kind of situations that you really see who is there when everything is falling apart around you.

Although for very different reasons, I am feeling like that, although I refuse to believe I have a depression, my gf broke up with me after a long 3 years of me taking shit from her, and is now starting to date another guy. Makes you feel like you're on the top of the world ey... So the very few real friends I have can be count by the fingers in one hand, and I'm very glad I actually got them by my side... Luckily I've managed to finish my uni degree with a pretty good average, didn't study shit for these last exams but did alright... I too feel like that, don't want to do a fucking shit, I just feel like drinking non stop and smoke lot's of weed to try and make this fucking pain go away or to actually stop thinking about anything, just don't think at all...

But I understand you dude, he's being a complete arrogant ass and it feels like he wants to be pitted on...

 

[DanLights]

I actually understand him, although I would never ever be as rude as him, I actually feel a bit emotional about the real friends I have, it's in this kind of situations that you really see who is there when everything is falling apart around you.

Although for very different reasons, I am feeling like that, although I refuse to believe I have a depression, my gf broke up with me after a long 3 years of me taking shit from her, and is now starting to date another guy. Makes you feel like you're on the top of the world ey... So the very few real friends I have can be count by the fingers in one hand, and I'm very glad I actually got them by my side... Luckily I've managed to finish my uni degree with a pretty good average, didn't study shit for these last exams but did alright... I too feel like that, don't want to do a fucking shit, I just feel like drinking non stop and smoke lot's of weed to try and make this fucking pain go away or to actually stop thinking about anything, just don't think at all...

But I understand you dude, he's being a complete arrogant ass and it feels like he wants to be pitted on...

wow, hard times man. All I can say I guess is everyone goes through that kind of stuff at some point in their life, it can get very depressing, but you just have to find a way to get out of it and crawl back into real living. As I said, there are so many positive beautiful things in life, I bet if you do a nice effort to absorb the good stuff and pay less attention to the bad stuff you'll get over it quicker

 

[Loren Littlejohn]

Wow I was never a dick to anyone when I went through my shit (and ended up hospitalized ).

My guess is the the whole "look what I did! Awesome UBER cool BLA BLA BLA" is the bi polar in mania mode. I'm also guessing the "I don't care" is the depression mode.

Bi Polar disorder is a fucked up brain issue, almost as shitty as really bad paranoid schizophrenia (but that can be hilarious sometimes, someone I work with told me her shoes said that they didn't want her to wear them. Got to be a trip to always be tripping.) and OCD.

I understand your frustration, my friends got really frustrated with me. One day my best friend just yelled at me and said "go get some fucking help" and I did and it was the best thing he ever did. Although I lost hope on drugs (trying 5 different ones then giving up) and went hard core into music, therapy was a definite must.

The only thing I can say is if he ever says anything about suicide, call an ambulance and have him committed. Since he is a d00d, more than likely he will do it and be successful in doing so.

 

[Metaltastic]

One thing to mention on the suicide note, though - there's a huge difference between wishing you were dead (or even that someone would kill you) because you just want the misery to end, and contemplating actually taking matters into your own hands; god knows how many times I thought the former back in the worst of times, but it was exceedingly rare that I thought the latter

 

[MetallyGuitarded]

Just curious, for those of you that are married, how do you handle that same semi-suicidal/uber-depressed emotional black hole of a person when they're your wife? I don't really see a way to just cut her out of my life for a time. I can't afford to become any kind of alcoholic. Sneap forum only takes up so much of a day.

NOTE: This post is half serious/half joking so I kinda expect "A2M/Gape, Murder/Suicide" replies but seriously.