Depression / Neurosis Thread

[EspaDa]

I've just come back after visiting my girlfriend's family and it hasn't really gone down well today. It was a disaster. I've experienced 2 or 3 panic attacks in the house of my girlfriend's family. It was terrible. Now I'm home and my heart's still pounding madly. I'm neurotic as fuck and despite the fact that I take meds neurosis is still tormenting my life. I can truly understand Bennington's motives to commit suicide as I myself wanted to kick the fucking chair today. You know these symptoms when panic attacks - nausea, compulsive thinking, vertigo. I wanted to fucking flee and never come back. The thing that's fucking funny is that during the attack I was able to talk with these people about themes that were fucking meaningless to me, perhaps just to come out as a courteous man. Fuck man, I've been feeling really well for like 5 days now. Today I've also felt well until the attack - then again, my life doesn't make any sense. Fuck this shit man, I don't want to be the Neurotic King.

 

[dwellerINTHEdark]

Try not to put yourself in stressful situations until you're leveled out on the fluoxetine. Take care of yourself man.

 

[Dak]

I've just come back after visiting my girlfriend's family and it hasn't really gone down well today. It was a disaster. I've experienced 2 or 3 panic attacks in the house of my girlfriend's family. It was terrible. Now I'm home and my heart's still pounding madly. I'm neurotic as fuck and despite the fact that I take meds neurosis is still tormenting my life. I can truly understand Bennington's motives to commit suicide as I myself wanted to kick the fucking chair today. You know these symptoms when panic attacks - nausea, compulsive thinking, vertigo. I wanted to fucking flee and never come back. The thing that's fucking funny is that during the attack I was able to talk with these people about themes that were fucking meaningless to me, perhaps just to come out as a courteous man. Fuck man, I've been feeling really well for like 5 days now. Today I've also felt well until the attack - then again, my life doesn't make any sense. Fuck this shit man, I don't want to be the Neurotic King.

I don't know what your financial means are; Psych therapy is often expensive beyond the means of persons posting here due to either age or class. I'd recommend finding some CBT practitioner that you can afford, possibly in a training clinic, and learning some skills. I'm personally a proponent of either Acceptance and Commitment Therapy (ACT) or the Unified Protocol (UP) for Anxiety. You can purchase workbooks and learn the skills on your own, but a therapist is often a helpful mediator.