So it's finally explicit that I am no longer taken by someone. I wasn't happy that my current situation was going to continue how it was even though we were both under agreement that's what was going to happen. I guess I just didn't want to put my life on hold for her anymore because it's going to be a while before she has her shit together again (it wasn't even together when we met, but that's a different story). She even implied that she didn't know why I was putting my life on hold for her and I just said 'Let's see what happens'. We were going to go to the Nile show together next week but that's probably not going to happen now.
I feel better because now there's no pressure from either individual to meet certain expectations. It was going south for a long time and she gave up some time ago but I cared about her a lot so we tried to keep it going.
I would explain the entire situation but it will be a wall of text, tl;dr type thing. I may do it later if and when I get really bored. It was an 18 month ordeal roughly with tons of weird shit thrown into the mix.