So I've been out on two dates with the 20-year-old, but I don't know where this is leading. I mean, we've been having good times, but no kissing or fondling or any of that stuff yet. I've been trying to show her that I think she's interesting and nice, and occasionally I think I get some sort of positive response, but for the most part she just seems neutral. The last date was Tuesday, and we sort of agreed to seeing each other today, but I've been having doubts, so I haven't called her or anything. I mean, I'm doubting what she wants. And then I texted her today, riffing on an in-joke about jizzing in my pants, something we talked and laughed about on the last date, but she just texted me back saying something to the equivalent of "stop that." I mean, what the fuck? I'm trying to create moments of unity or something here, while still giving her space. I realize she may want to take it slowly, but I'd appreciate it if she at least gave me some signs.
What I'm saying is, I get the feeling that when we hook up, she's enjoying herself (if she's not faking, but why would she do that?), but I also get the feeling that I'm the active party in getting there in the first place.