As fucking shallow as it sounds I'm getting pretty bummed with attempting to meet someone. I'll have an awesome amount in common with her and I try to think "looks aren't everything, see them for their personality" but I just can't do it. And they aren't unattractive by even modern society's often tough standards. I'm a very particular SOB and am constantly critical of everything I encounter. You can afford to be that way in some areas of your life- buying a new car, make sure everything meets your standards, cross things off your list, but you can be that way with people. I wish I could be like most of society and be either lacking of standards or at least mentally capable of settling for less. It would make life in general a hell of a lot easier.