So something was on my woman's mind last night and I asked if she wanted to talk about it. Well, it turned into a 45 minute conversation about how she's not necessarily unhappy, but she's disappointed in how I don't really plan on doing fun shit and I just want to sit around and do nothing every weekend. She also mentioned how we kinda rushed into the relationship, but she was never explicit that she regrets it. Now, I love going and doing shit with her, but I just don't really feel like planning shit half the time. She did compliment me on the fact that I'm supportive and that I'm respectful of her (I don't ask for pics of her tits and shit). She also misses the fact that we used to have in depth conversations about interesting shit when we first started dating and we don't really do that anymore. Because of this, we're going to start setting aside time during the weekends to just chat about stuff. We're not allowed to talk about work, our parents or bitch about anything unless it's relevant to the conversation or topic at hand.
I'm really afraid I'm going to lose this girl and I really like her, like, a lot. Pretty sure I'd be heartbroken if I lost her and I would revert back to drinking myself stupid every weekend if I lost her.
I don't know. Maybe this is one of those times where I need to figure out if I really want a relationship or what. It seems like everything backfires for me when it comes to women. Maybe I just get to comfortable and take everything for granted? People say I'm too smart for my own good when it comes to women and that makes it hard for me to nab a woman?
I'm just rambling at this point.