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-[chop]-;9023615 said:Could be a massive hangover? hungover for 2 days or more is actually possible lolz at least if you have been drunk for 4 days straight
Seriously tho dude..I'm sorry to hear that..sucks to be ill.
I don't think so man, I didn't drink that much on Monday night. Probably just some kind of stomach bug or bowel obstruction.
Navy is really getting to me, and I haven't even left for boot camp yet.
So much stuff is starting to pick up, like my band, this girl
Come July 8th, it's like "Pack up your bags shit head you ain't seeing this shit until next year.
I'm even worried that the band will just get tired of waiting for me and just leave me in the dust. I'm worried that I won't be in a relationship with this girl by the time I leave, and if I am, she wouldn't have been mine for very long. I'm worried that if she and I are together when I leave, that we might not be once I get back.
I don't want to start over, but I don't want to disappoint my folks and quit on the navy, and I don't really want to quit. This is something that will get me ahead in life, yet kill it at the same time.
Fucking confusing...fucking shitt
That and a bunch of stuff that I need to turn in to graduate is due friday, and I'm not done
So much stuff is starting to pick up, like my band, this girl
Come July 8th, it's like "Pack up your bags shit head you ain't seeing this shit until next year.
I'm even worried that the band will just get tired of waiting for me and just leave me in the dust. I'm worried that I won't be in a relationship with this girl by the time I leave, and if I am, she wouldn't have been mine for very long. I'm worried that if she and I are together when I leave, that we might not be once I get back.
I don't want to start over, but I don't want to disappoint my folks and quit on the navy, and I don't really want to quit. This is something that will get me ahead in life, yet kill it at the same time.
Fucking confusing...fucking shitt
That and a bunch of stuff that I need to turn in to graduate is due friday, and I'm not done
Boot Camp is 8 weeks
"A" School (where I learn my trade) is 15 weeks
"C" School (where I learn my specialization in my trade) could be anywhere from 3-15 depending on how well I do in "A" school
So I'm either going to be gone until Early January/Late December or around the time of my 19th birthday.
"A" School (where I learn my trade) is 15 weeks
"C" School (where I learn my specialization in my trade) could be anywhere from 3-15 depending on how well I do in "A" school
So I'm either going to be gone until Early January/Late December or around the time of my 19th birthday.
Half a year, I leave in July
I'm going to be an Intelligence Specialist, and I don't know what my specialization will be until after I finish "A" school.
I'm going to be an Intelligence Specialist, and I don't know what my specialization will be until after I finish "A" school.
Well here it goes.
I have pretty much nobody. I have people I occasionally talk to, and sometimes I'll kind of invite myself to little parties where I'm quite lonely and a little desperate to connect with people, but those don't really count.
And to me loneliness is one of the worst feelings you can have; around four years ago I spent 6 months going to school talking with literally NO ONE. So in class I'd be in the back alone, in the breaks I'd walk a few kilometers and then head back.
Because of the past year (cue sister's epilepsy, which is as of today STILL hurting me in the forms of Post traumatic stress disorder, fucked up family, general not well being) ofcourse I feel down. I didn't have any friends to share all of this with, so more than replies on a forum I didn't get (I'm not saying those count, but in comparison with real life they do).
So now it's half a year later, I'm still feeling depressed. But in my head I developed some kind of train of thought that I shouldn't be such a whiny bitch and get the fuck over it. I WANT bad stuff to happen to me, I WANT to say that I have a reason to feel legit depressed (now it's not 'legit' because it's been a few months). That can't be healthy "I WANT bad stuff to happen to me". It's true though, when I receive bad news I sigh and feel like a slight pain in my chest that tells me "Finally, I can sit alone in my room sad, with a reason!".
Secondly my looks. I've been bullied from the age of around 9 to 16, which has left its mark. I had the braces / glasses thing going on, both are gone now. I've dropped my metal t-shirts and dark clothing, now I'm sporting the jeans with v-neck shirts and allstars and in general just normal / hip clothing. Also I've been racking up accesories that are, atleast to me, cool; aviators, thumb rings, bracelets and the likes.
Still no girl has looked at me in a slight interest. WHY. I don't give a crap what the reason might be, I just wanna know WHY because everytime I see a mirror or window I have to look at myself because I'm uncertain about how I look. I wear wintercoats in the summer with a hoody so my hair doesn't get fucked up from cycling in the wind, all that sort of stuff.
End of rant. On a different forum I've been advised to seek help. Yay
I have pretty much nobody. I have people I occasionally talk to, and sometimes I'll kind of invite myself to little parties where I'm quite lonely and a little desperate to connect with people, but those don't really count.
And to me loneliness is one of the worst feelings you can have; around four years ago I spent 6 months going to school talking with literally NO ONE. So in class I'd be in the back alone, in the breaks I'd walk a few kilometers and then head back.
Because of the past year (cue sister's epilepsy, which is as of today STILL hurting me in the forms of Post traumatic stress disorder, fucked up family, general not well being) ofcourse I feel down. I didn't have any friends to share all of this with, so more than replies on a forum I didn't get (I'm not saying those count, but in comparison with real life they do).
So now it's half a year later, I'm still feeling depressed. But in my head I developed some kind of train of thought that I shouldn't be such a whiny bitch and get the fuck over it. I WANT bad stuff to happen to me, I WANT to say that I have a reason to feel legit depressed (now it's not 'legit' because it's been a few months). That can't be healthy "I WANT bad stuff to happen to me". It's true though, when I receive bad news I sigh and feel like a slight pain in my chest that tells me "Finally, I can sit alone in my room sad, with a reason!".
Secondly my looks. I've been bullied from the age of around 9 to 16, which has left its mark. I had the braces / glasses thing going on, both are gone now. I've dropped my metal t-shirts and dark clothing, now I'm sporting the jeans with v-neck shirts and allstars and in general just normal / hip clothing. Also I've been racking up accesories that are, atleast to me, cool; aviators, thumb rings, bracelets and the likes.
Still no girl has looked at me in a slight interest. WHY. I don't give a crap what the reason might be, I just wanna know WHY because everytime I see a mirror or window I have to look at myself because I'm uncertain about how I look. I wear wintercoats in the summer with a hoody so my hair doesn't get fucked up from cycling in the wind, all that sort of stuff.
End of rant. On a different forum I've been advised to seek help. Yay
Dude..why did you drop the metal shirts?..i have worn metal shirts since i was kid and still do..I'm 24 btw haha and i don't care what ppl think or might think..i wear what to me is comfy...anyways..i don't really have anything personal to reveal either..just that i just had surgery on my lower back and that I'm 24 years old but act as if i was 20 years old 
Got tired of the same old shirts, and when you have literally no self-esteem you try everything. I feel much better in my current state of clothing.-[chop]-;9027517 said:Dude..why did you drop the metal shirts?..i have worn metal shirts since i was kid and still do..I'm 24 btw haha and i don't care what ppl think or might think..i wear what to me is comfy...anyways..i don't really have anything personal to reveal either..just that i just had surgery on my lower back and that I'm 24 years old but act as if i was 20 years old
Slatanictrash
Member
Sorry if this sounds blunt Never The Same
BUT FUCKIN GROW UP!!!!!!!!!!!!
All the time I see you posting it's always depressive stuff, if you really feel this bad, then I would suggest that you speak with a specialist and not here if you always feel this way, half the stuff you have said is no different to what I have experienced, I have a hearing disability and I was put into mainstream school as I was too clever for my deaf school and I was bullied everyday from the age 6 - 16, I had no fuckin friends, EVERYDAY I was a FUCKIN punchbag, there was no-one I could turn too for help and I was always the kid in the back of the class, you are no different from me, life treats us all shit, it's how you handle it which sets you apart, I suffered severe physcological problems because of what I went through and it was only speaking to a specialist that I am now able to understand and control the anger I have.
You want bad stuff to happen so you can justify your depression "FUCK YOU" try already having bad stuff happening to you, like being bullied because of your disability or those kids that have been fucked up the arse by their so called fathers/uncles/grandfathers, they have more cause to feel fucked up and depressed
Yes, it's sad your sisiter has an illness, who doesn't? This is what life is about, dealing with the challenges as strong as you can
I come here to the forum as an escape from reality for a few hours, having a laugh and join in conversations about music, films or daft things in general like me having a rant about my football team which brings amusement to others, not to read depressive postings, as I said if you are feeling depressed then speak to a specialist, a discussion forum is not the place as this as is meant to be a place of escapism from real life for a few hours
I do sincerley hope you will find the help you need and I will wish you all the best in your fight against depression, trust me, I know, I have been there and I am on medication myself for it
BUT FUCKIN GROW UP!!!!!!!!!!!!
All the time I see you posting it's always depressive stuff, if you really feel this bad, then I would suggest that you speak with a specialist and not here if you always feel this way, half the stuff you have said is no different to what I have experienced, I have a hearing disability and I was put into mainstream school as I was too clever for my deaf school and I was bullied everyday from the age 6 - 16, I had no fuckin friends, EVERYDAY I was a FUCKIN punchbag, there was no-one I could turn too for help and I was always the kid in the back of the class, you are no different from me, life treats us all shit, it's how you handle it which sets you apart, I suffered severe physcological problems because of what I went through and it was only speaking to a specialist that I am now able to understand and control the anger I have.
You want bad stuff to happen so you can justify your depression "FUCK YOU" try already having bad stuff happening to you, like being bullied because of your disability or those kids that have been fucked up the arse by their so called fathers/uncles/grandfathers, they have more cause to feel fucked up and depressed
Yes, it's sad your sisiter has an illness, who doesn't? This is what life is about, dealing with the challenges as strong as you can
I come here to the forum as an escape from reality for a few hours, having a laugh and join in conversations about music, films or daft things in general like me having a rant about my football team which brings amusement to others, not to read depressive postings, as I said if you are feeling depressed then speak to a specialist, a discussion forum is not the place as this as is meant to be a place of escapism from real life for a few hours
I do sincerley hope you will find the help you need and I will wish you all the best in your fight against depression, trust me, I know, I have been there and I am on medication myself for it
siobhan!
Street Team shindiggery.
-[chop]-;9027517 said:Dude..why did you drop the metal shirts?..i have worn metal shirts since i was kid and still do..I'm 24 btw haha and i don't care what ppl think or might think..i wear what to me is comfy...anyways..i don't really have anything personal to reveal either..just that i just had surgery on my lower back and that I'm 24 years old but act as if i was 20 years old
I TOTALLY thought you were 14, what the fuck hahahaha.
I kind of agree with Slaytanic in that trying to justify feeling depressed isn't a great move. It's all about keeping the chin up, I got bullied constantly throughout school, I still get shit no matter where I go. Whether it's for what I wear, the music I listen to or most ridiculously, how tall I am. I just ignore them, because I know I don't have to steep to their scummy level. It's all about dealing with the shit life throws at you and dealing, yeah we all get down, that's understandable and we are all here for you. Just chin up bud.
You are just the worst kind of hypocrit here aren'tya. No offense but you're just a cunt
I type my shit stories here for MYSELF. It clears my mind, I have no one else to tell them to (I let miss leopard dress in on the occasional story) but still. I even ended my post with "End of rant", and what do you do?You tell me that I should shut the fuck up and talk about this stuff somewhere else, and THEN you begin over how sad your life was and bullied this bullied that. Who the fuck cares. I'm not in any way implying that I don't have compassion for the stuff that has / is happening to you, but for fuck sake man.
This forum is indeed an escapism for my real life; here can I spew my shit in one thread, and laugh at funny pictures in the other.
For last, you come here for a few reads of joy and laughs, WHY THE FUCK DO YOU LOOK INTO THE "PERSONAL SHIT" THREAD THEN. Jesus fucking christ MAYBE YOU ARE BOUND TO SEE THESE STORIES THEN.
Might I add that you have been whining obnoxiously about your ankle issue for the last few months. "Oh I cannae get out of the house, oh it hurts so much". Bloody hypocrit.
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