The drinking has been from random invites, and is also just to deal with the withdrawl symptoms of all the pills and weed I was on. I'm already sick of alcohol. I quit weed awhile back, the pills were recently.
Ever watch Celebrity Rehab with Dr.Drew? I'm not withdrawing from methadone, but it's still a crazy feeling when you stop taking pills you've been on for so long. Bars, Xanax, Lowertabs, Somas. I feel like a different person. Different mindset. Still very worried and anxious, but maybe more...accepting? I don't know. All I know is I'll be making more money now. Life has to be about money at this crucial age, everything else will follow. I need to get the fucking money as soon as possible. I can't waste anymore of it on drugs. That's what's stressing me the most right now. I need to make as much money as possible as soon as I can.