Pretty sick seeing this:
Throat camera section starts around 25 min
You should do one too, Caleb
And yeah, I agree about vocalists that never know when to let the music speak. I'm seriously impressed by Will's vocals though, even though I'm not a huge fan of the deathcore genre in general.
Haha, chill down on the booze and give us some growls! I did see you mentioning you're not doing anything musically before you removed the krvnk post, so just wanted to pitch in and say that's a loss for methul.
Yeah I definitely need to lay off the booze, because I don't remember removing that post.... Or posting it. Which is kind of fucked up. Deep deep depression man. I almost deleted my youtube channel and facebook accounts out of pure frustration a while back, and I've been either ignoring music or rambling about lost projects ever since.
I'm glad you called out my deleted post though, because I literally have no memory of it, and that has happened a few times now in different parts of my life. I think I'm at rock bottom. After years of trying so hard to be positive, and happily working on anything for free just as long as it reaches someone's ears, I started to become bitter. I just wanted to make songs that like-minded people would be able to connect to. I was always the guy that told my bandmates that we should be in it for the fun and joy of the show, but in recent years I just started to hate the industry and the complete lack of recognition. Music used to be one of the the only things in my life that made me feel good. But over time I started to realize no one gave a shit about my passion, not even my friends.
It goes way beyond music though, I'm just damaged in general. I need to re-examine everything I think, before I lose myself even more than I already have. Obviously music isn't enough of an outlet now. Or maybe I should have been channeling my sadness and anger into more music instead of abandoning it.
I'll try not to delete this post this time.
I don't know why I decided to post this baggage here. A few small words triggered a lot of unexpressed thoughts. I guess this felt like the least public and comfortable spot to speak out loud.
my wife gives birth in a month.
how did i get here
congratulations, best change in my life so far.btw, we're also becoming parents in about 3 months
Yeah I definitely need to lay off the booze, because I don't remember removing that post.... Or posting it. Which is kind of fucked up. Deep deep depression man. I almost deleted my youtube channel and facebook accounts out of pure frustration a while back, and I've been either ignoring music or rambling about lost projects ever since.
I'm glad you called out my deleted post though, because I literally have no memory of it, and that has happened a few times now in different parts of my life. I think I'm at rock bottom. After years of trying so hard to be positive, and happily working on anything for free just as long as it reaches someone's ears, I started to become bitter. I just wanted to make songs that like-minded people would be able to connect to. I was always the guy that told my bandmates that we should be in it for the fun and joy of the show, but in recent years I just started to hate the industry and the complete lack of recognition. Music used to be one of the the only things in my life that made me feel good. But over time I started to realize no one gave a shit about my passion, not even my friends.
It goes way beyond music though, I'm just damaged in general. I need to re-examine everything I think, before I lose myself even more than I already have. Obviously music isn't enough of an outlet now. Or maybe I should have been channeling my sadness and anger into more music instead of abandoning it.
I'll try not to delete this post this time.
I don't know why I decided to post this baggage here. A few small words triggered a lot of unexpressed thoughts. I guess this felt like the least public and comfortable spot to speak out loud.
i quit drinking almost 4 years ago. another big change to my life. alchohol has given me brain damage, i still crave it all these years later. although it is much more manageable.
i still dont know what my problem is, but i realized it was a problem for me. i went through AA and my higher power is that i see myself in every story, even if it didnt happen to me. the leaflet on "things to consider" always made me lol, i had about 8 on the list and the rest just gave me ideas for how to be a better drunk lol. glad i quit, having a family now makes me see the value
congratulations, best change in my life so far.
I'm pretty much on the verge of quitting alcohol completely myself.
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Right now things are looking up though. Less booze, slightly more productivity.