The Great Depression/Butthurt thread

[Belac]

4 last nights were fucking shit.
1st part of sleep is ez pz, then middle of the night, wake up, try to go back to sleep and in this state between reality and dreams i have half dreams. Of people googling stupid shit. I mean really stupid. My brain wouldnt stop forcing me to watch blue color. Blue ball. Blue paper. Then i was seeing some articles, dont remember what they were about. Then a spoon in a teacup for ages.

Cant even describe how exhausting and infuriating that is. One more night like that and ill go mad. If they were dreams, fine, but again, its something between dreaming and being awake.

I have had similar experiences. I'm a light sleeper and I dream a lot in general, but sometimes I get these really annoying half-ass dreams that completely occupy my mind, and I drift in and out of sleep thinking about something I should not give a shit about.

It actually happened very recently, I kept dreaming about playing on a swing set and jumping onto a dirt path that I had to follow for some reason, but if I made a wrong turn I was back on the swing set, and it kept repeating in varying degrees of annoyance. There were also random people I don't know talking about random topics and repeating themselves, but for some reason I kept focusing on those encounters even though they made no sense. The dream was a bunch of cyclical bullshit and I felt like I was rapidly alternating between falling asleep and waking up.

It's hard to keep track of time, but it feels like it's happening for long portions of the night. By morning it feels like I was actually awake more than I was asleep. It's happened to me quite a few times, and I always feel really tired the next day.

Not sure if that's the same thing that you are talking about, but it's fucking annoying.

 

[Lifemocker]

It might be something similiar. The repetition and being meaningless is whats tiring.
Luckly, today I didnt experiance that, but day before not only I had this shit, but also when I was awake my brain decided to "play" song i really dislike, because it's boring and repetetive. It's like it knew it would piss me off and destroy me mentaly. I dont get it.

 

[DarkGift]

so much going on at work at the moment, no time to post on teh forum ;c

 

[Lifemocker]

Only sad reactions.

No time to shitpost or play more vr or watch chinese cartoons

 

[Lifemocker]

Quoting myself

Just watched Koe no Katachi (Shape of Voice). It's been rare that I do a movie in one sitting nowadays. I was planning to watch it in 40 minute intervals but I got invested so hard I just had to finish it.
TLR of plot: Deaf girl joins new school, she gets bullied, and forced to leave school again. After that bully realizes his sins and is doing everything to make things right after few years. Also the deaf girl hates herself

And its fucking beautiful. From visuals, through music, characters and plot. It even partially hit close to home.
Maybe I didnt exactly bully anyone in my youth, but in middle school I saw a girl bullied and did nothing, hell, maybe even once or twice I also bullied her in some way to not stand out that much. In my defence, I just focused on my own survival since our class was basically taken over by 2 retards that had to retake the year, and you either joined their "gang" or were against them. I just didnt get intimidated and was telling on them 24/7. Now I see that was a huge gamble but it paid off for me. Still, I feel guilty as fuck that I didnt help her and I wish I could go back in time and change that. I hope she's okay now.

Anyway, nice offtopic, but the movie resonated within me and I guess I just had to confess my sins lol.

Not giving it 10/10 because there could be some elements in plot that could be more expanded, but solid 9/10 is justified. WIll probably watch again in the future with english dub to see how they did it.

Welp no, she killed herself year later according to a girl I reached out to.
Great. I just needed more guilt in my life. I see this year wants to absolutely destroy me...

 

[rj rl]

Jeez, school can be such a fucked up place.

 

[Lifemocker]

Jeez, school can be such a fucked up place.

True. But what would they expect when people during rebelious age (middle school starts at age 13 here) meet 2 jackasses than are obviously retarded since they failed the year 2 times, but are cocky and strong. It's obvious people will follow them, teachers wont be an authority.
I wasnt and Im not a guy that will follow someone like that, nor I am someone who would give in to them. However I can see how a lot of people would worship them or fall victim to them.

And this girl wasnt standing out, from what I remember she wasnt wealthy, but also wasn't starving. She was definitely a silent type, so maybe this + unfashionable clothes were enough to hunt her. But after she bled during class that was the end of her, she was mocked every day. Poor fucking girl, she basically died because people bullied her for something completely natural and normal. And other girls too.

Fuck this, fuck everything about that.I hope most of them are miserable fucks now and are rotting somewhere. Because of them I also feel like I have blood on my hands. Just fuck this.

 

[DarkGift]

that's sad poor girl

 

[rj rl]

https://www.independent.co.uk/arts-...ouse-fire-knife-police-incident-a8678281.html

What the fuck. One of my favorite death metal personalities. They're gonna lock him away for fucking life.

 

[rj rl]

Prepare to hear "that's what death metal does to you" in relation to this story for the next 20 years.

 

[Lifemocker]

Never, ever ordering something via DHL ever again.

I cringe every time I have to pay taxes to this shithole country, but DHL makes it even more infuriating.

3 hours ago I had a phonecall:
"Hi, DHL here, what did you order and how much did you pay"
"Bitch, you should have this info but okay, here it is: xxxx"
"Thanks, please send this to this email as well"
"bitch what"

SMS with mail address. Fine. Sending it again.

30 minutes ago, new email from DHL
"Hi, its those faggots from dhl again, here, fill out this form, because we dont know what you ordered and how much you payed for it. BTW IN ATTACHMENTS YOU CAN DOWNLOAD DOCUMENTS SAYING WHAT YOU ORDERED AND HOW MUCH YOU PAYED FOR IT LMAO.
Oh, and tell us what are those items made off and what you use them for"

I ORDERED FUCKING SOUNDTRACK MADE OF PLASTIC SO I CAN MASTURBATE WITH IT YOU FUCKING RETARDS,






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[Lifemocker]

Fuck you goofy

 

[the_fiend]

Having to go to Vegas is the most depressing way of starting a New Year. Also caught a Flu on top of all that.

 

[Belac]

Most people would say going to Vegas is a great way to start the new year.

 

[Sister Of Destruction]

My life is a one big fuc☆☆☆☆ problem

 

[Lifemocker]

Talking bout LV, I just got Vegas goodies for Imgur secret santa:

Cant wait to use those dice and lose more games

 

[the_fiend]

Most people would say going to Vegas is a great way to start the new year.

Unless you're REALLY into gambling or strip clubs (which is depressing in itself), I really don't see why that would be the case.

The entire city smells like cigarette, cheap perfume and ass sweat, every single person trying to scam you, everything is overpriced as fuck and you see an amplified version of every over-the-top American cultural norm.

Talking bout LV, I just got Vegas goodies for Imgur secret santa

I saw these Casino played cards in Vegas stores as well. Why would people want pre-used playing cards from a casino? Google wasn't much help with this either.

 

[Lifemocker]

I guess just as a souvenir

 

[Blurry_Dreams]

the people that call themselves my friends are all totally batshit crazy

 

[Lifemocker]

Fuck timezones.

Commissioned an artist, he's from Indonesia. When I sleep or work he's active, and when I'm active he is asleep or at work. Communication is pain in the butt.