My girlfriend and I are on "a break," whatever the fuck that means, by request from her. She claims to be feeling confused and somewhat apathetic to the idea of us getting married and is worried she's going to have to deal with my indecisiveness when it comes to taking "the next step" each time in our relationship (ie getting married, having kids, I don't know what follows that...group sex?). I didn't understand the logic behind this at all but I could tell something was amiss with her. She just seemed pretty meh about me flying over their during christmas. She claims she was glad I came and all that but had a feeling of anxiety the whole time and didn't know what it meant.
I don't know what to think really. Obviously if she's struggling with something I'd like her to be able to express those feelings to me and not wait months to tell me, that's what has me more upset than anything. It wasn't her wanting to go on a break or what she's actually feeling, it's the fact she waited so long to tell me while I'm sitting around thinking it's all good and by the end of summer I'd be moving out there and we would be moving on with our lives.
It's not a breakup and she says she still loves me and we aren't going to see other people (that's the last thing I want to do tbh). It's pretty soul crushing to hear something like this, especially when I was willing to propose to her while I was in Hawaii last.
Thoughts?
@krampus: Thanks for the FB message.