Males and Females

I'm not giving up on you, RJ. You deserve to see sense.

I want to, but it's really difficult. I still think about her often. I'm starting to regret going out with her for as long as I did because of the fact that I fall really fast in relationships (a fault I'm fully aware I have)

Convert that regret into antipathy.

I'm a terribly forgiving person. Hell, she cheated on me while she was with me, for a guy who goes to her university. I forgave her for it. Goes to show how much of a pushover I can be.

The willingness to forgive is admirable in friendships (though risks being walked all over), but in relationships is a sure sign of weakness. If you were dating for only a few months and were cheated upon, then that should tell you all you need to know about the value of that person to you, and how she values you.

Feels like she does indeed. I don't think she values me very highly at all, but I'm still just drawn to her... even if just for friendship.

It seems like you have nothing to derive from a friendship with her but pain.

I would never go back out with her. Never ever.

The main reason I "expect" her to initiate contact is just cause I hate being on bad terms with people. Especially people I grew to be really intimate and close to. :/ Makes me feel like it's somehow my fault all these bad things happened.

I know that feeling. I've been that way with my ex-girlfriends for a long time. But then I realized how needlessly painful and stupid it was to expect that. I need not quote Marcus Aurelius to tell you that what other people think of you is the last thing that should define who you are.
 
if it's a girl who's sleeping outside, or in a homeless shelter, you can take her to a cheap motel room that you've rented for one night, she'll have sex with you just so she can be in a motel room for a night

this ^^^ was actually how i started having sex with the girl that i was making out with last thursday
 
I just spent about 5 debaucherous days with German girl. Had shitloads of fun. I went and met her at the bar she works at on Friday night and spent the next however many days drinking and hanging and fucking and going out and seeing bands and laughing and wrestling and giving each other shit. She also likes metal and just good music in general and introduced me to lots of good stuff I haven't heard. She has a great sense of humour and after I drunkenly professed my undying love for her at some point she proceeded to give me shit about it regularly for the rest of the time we hung out. I'm pretty much sure that nothing serious can or will come of this as she's most definitely a 'free spirit' but I'm just trying to have as much fun as I can with her while she's around.

Sigh. :Spin:

Germans are dicks. I had something similar with a German dude (in Germany though, not my home country) and went back to Germany like 3 times to hang out with him. Very expensive.

MP called me to wish me a happy birthday on Monday. He seems to be doing well and we obviously didn't talk about FEELINGS or anything, but it was nice to hear from him.

I also got a birthday text from that Army dude I went on dates with a bit in fall/winter 2011. He got back from Afghanistan in one piece in October. Peace of mind.
 
I feel like fucking some girly butt. Sorry that I don't have any ancient rome analogy to that, I just want to find some butt and molest it. What about New Year's Eve? When I'm back in Prague.
 
spent about an our this morning making out with the chick that is horrible in bed

i tried to talk to her about our sex life, but i still haven't been able to flat-out-tell-her that she's bad in bed, which is getting awkward because she keeps telling me how spectacularly awesome i am in bed, i can't convince her to do woman-on-top, and she's oldschool when it comes to sex, she only wants penis-in-vagina sex

her phone went a long time without having any minutes on it
she planned on getting more minutes today but i'm not sure if she made it out there because she hasn't texted me

i've been doing a lot of stuff she doesn't know about
she doesn't ever ask where i'm going or where i've been

i don't really think i could convince her to do anal, she won't even do cowgirl or doggie style

What a fucking idiot she is. She actually thinks that anything but traditional missionary sex makes her a whore? :lol:

i was making out with this^^^ girl all day thursday of last week and also all day today

she doesn't have any minutes on her phone right now, and i don't even have a phone right now, so our relationship has gotten kinda weird, i'm dating her when i see her, but i'm not seeing her every day, she's still employed and i'm making out with other girls while she's at work, today she bout me lunch at Subway, we sat down inside to eat, so this was the first time i've sat down in a resturaunt/fast-food place to eat with a girl that's seen my dick since the crazy photographer girl that was taking pictures of my dick, or to look at it another way, this was the first time i sat down in a resturaunt/fast-food place to eat with a girl that was having sex with me since the girl that was responsible for putting me in county jail for six months

EDIT
this horrible-in-bed girl is in the bathroom right now and after this computer session ends in 10 min, i'm gonna be making out with her again
 
i was making out with this^^^ girl all day thursday of last week and also all day today

she doesn't have any minutes on her phone right now, and i don't even have a phone right now, so our relationship has gotten kinda weird, i'm dating her when i see her, but i'm not seeing her every day, she's still employed and i'm making out with other girls while she's at work, today she bout me lunch at Subway, we sat down inside to eat, so this was the first time i've sat down in a resturaunt/fast-food place to eat with a girl that's seen my dick since the crazy photographer girl that was taking pictures of my dick, or to look at it another way, this was the first time i sat down in a resturaunt/fast-food place to eat with a girl that was having sex with me since the girl that was responsible for putting me in county jail for six months

EDIT
this horrible-in-bed girl is in the bathroom right now and after this computer session ends in 10 min, i'm gonna be making out with her again

What the fucking shit of a cunt.