Zephyrus
Tyrants and Slaves
I'm not giving up on you, RJ. You deserve to see sense.
Convert that regret into antipathy.
The willingness to forgive is admirable in friendships (though risks being walked all over), but in relationships is a sure sign of weakness. If you were dating for only a few months and were cheated upon, then that should tell you all you need to know about the value of that person to you, and how she values you.
It seems like you have nothing to derive from a friendship with her but pain.
I know that feeling. I've been that way with my ex-girlfriends for a long time. But then I realized how needlessly painful and stupid it was to expect that. I need not quote Marcus Aurelius to tell you that what other people think of you is the last thing that should define who you are.
I want to, but it's really difficult. I still think about her often. I'm starting to regret going out with her for as long as I did because of the fact that I fall really fast in relationships (a fault I'm fully aware I have)
Convert that regret into antipathy.
I'm a terribly forgiving person. Hell, she cheated on me while she was with me, for a guy who goes to her university. I forgave her for it. Goes to show how much of a pushover I can be.
The willingness to forgive is admirable in friendships (though risks being walked all over), but in relationships is a sure sign of weakness. If you were dating for only a few months and were cheated upon, then that should tell you all you need to know about the value of that person to you, and how she values you.
Feels like she does indeed. I don't think she values me very highly at all, but I'm still just drawn to her... even if just for friendship.
It seems like you have nothing to derive from a friendship with her but pain.
I would never go back out with her. Never ever.
The main reason I "expect" her to initiate contact is just cause I hate being on bad terms with people. Especially people I grew to be really intimate and close to. :/ Makes me feel like it's somehow my fault all these bad things happened.
I know that feeling. I've been that way with my ex-girlfriends for a long time. But then I realized how needlessly painful and stupid it was to expect that. I need not quote Marcus Aurelius to tell you that what other people think of you is the last thing that should define who you are.