No one is striking my fancy. I want my damn fancy struck. I'm half-tempted to get things going with women to experience being the object of their lust and interest again, but I think it'll ultimately be empty. I'd like a companion, but one that feels natural. I'm not even sure why, because stable relationships have ended up feeling like prisons. It would be so nice to satisfy my desires for sex, emotional connection, and fun in general with a person I can communicate with with zero calculation beforehand.