CiG
Room with a View
Being a dominatrix shouldn't involve being mean all the time, that sounds like it was much more of a job to her and less a natural expression she was capitalizing on. I get exhausted from dealing with women who want me to be the typical dominant male and that's essentially what I'm talking about here.
Not that the relationship is about sex, as in just sexual pleasure that any person can honestly just satisfy with an Internet connect and their hand, but rather I think it's more akin to going against my fundamental nature constantly, probably how a closeted gay person feels being married to someone of the opposite sex.
They probably genuinely got off sexually a lot but deep down it was killing them because they're gay. Well, that's how I feel about being with goofy submissive women my whole life lol. I can only keep it up for so long before I feel like I'm dying inside from a fundamental dissatisfaction. It's also not just sexual, because sex doesn't happen in a vacuum obviously, it comes with all kinds of dynamics and emotions.
What is it that you like about a woman who puts on a tough public front but are basically slavegirls in private? Genuinely interested.
I'm surprised, I've always talked about what I'm into. Women have been using my face as a seat since I was in high school.
That sounds awesome. This is probably the best way to discover yourself, by being with someone who is exploratory and honestly most people probably find out, in the course of exploration in the bedroom, that they're vanilla and perfectly satisfied with basic, normal sex. For me it was just an unfolding, ever-expanding realization that I like to be a little worm.
