such cheap insults don't really impress me to be honest..
See, I've just gotten into the bad habit of trying extremely hard not to give a shit. That means womanising, drinking heavily and procrastinating - and therefore, I'm starting to get a bit fat bad story bro, I wouldn't suggest it to anybody (well, except the womanising bit) because it fucks you right up. I've been sick for the past few days because I've drank far too much - my liver must be like a raisin by now.
Also, trying that hard to stop giving a fuck leads to acting like a total cunt IRL. being a dick online is fine and all that, but when you start telling somebody who's begging for change to climb a wall of dicks (seriously) then you take a step back and go "Fucking Christ, that was out of line even for me". Doesn't help that I've got so many trust issues with literally everything and everyone so that adds to paranoia which equates to more drinking and therefore trying even harder to not give a fuck which... well, you get the idea.
tl;dr - I'm becoming a total twat because I hate people, wat do
Good I don't want gay little Dream Theater fags from Holland reading my posts anyway.
Good I don't want gay little Dream Theater fags from Holland reading my posts anyway.
I hate this. I don't know what I feel right now. I love her but at the same time I don't. I don't know if I can go through this again. I placed an ad on craigslist looking for a "casual encounter" I'm so lost...
I loved her so much, and to think that she never loved me is pain of the worst sort. I feel alone, but I don't at the same time, I know my friends are there for me, but the only thing that could possibly give me comfort right now is if someone came to me and told me they were going through the exact same thing so I wouldn't feel alone.
I don't know what to think. All I know is that I want to start over and move to San Antonio to live with my friend.
My mom might have cancer, even if it is cancer, they'll be able to remove it, and from what I hear, it's the least threatning of all cancers. But she's my mom, I would feel like an inconsiderate douchefag if I just up and left her, even if it turned out not to be cancer.