sometimes i would like to think that when we die we simply end our existence in all forms, just an eternal sleep, probably because i can simply not grasp nor want to grasp the concept of eternal life, that is life as it is now, other times i dont even know if i exist anyway, am i just a memory of a life, destined to repeat itself for eternity, but inside i know there is more, i am not a christian, and often i mock blind faith, but i know there is a god, in what shape or form i know not, but i know that he's got an amazing sence of humour, often in my darkest hour something will happen, just a little thing, that make me laugh and i'll remember how pointless this all is, maybe life itself is a joke, we get so caught up in such petty things that we are blinded to what lies beyond, the whole picture, after all nothing that we do in life on earth matters, everything is forgotten in time, its what we learn from life that is important, how we further our spiritual awareness, i do believe in reincarnation, i think that there are lessons to be learnt in life and we must continue life on earth until we reach some stage of purity and perfection, we become light. i cannot say that my ideas are right and yours are wrong, that would make me as bad as the blind religions that i mock so frequently, each person decides their own fate, each person sees the world in a different light, but for me i have had spiritual experiences which lead me to believe there is life after death, i used to long for death, welcoming with open arms hoping she would give up her mysteries, but then i realised that life on earth is so short anyway, we might as well live our life here to the full, take each day as a new opportunity, see the world how we want to see it and not have others force their tainted views on us