The definite, new "How Do You Feel" Thread

[hyena]

@incendiaire: well, that's a real bummer. i really wish they right your mark asap.

@hilj: well, that's a real bummer. i really hope your body stops hurting soon.

nf: well, that's a real bummer. only less than usual. i had TEH hectic day, but right now my flat doesn't look like a festival site after the festival anymore. i also have a machine-readable passport and plane tickets to all places i have to go before the summer's over except for one. a few end-of-the-day drinks did me good, maybe far too good, but i'll only know tomorrow in the am.

oh, and you have no idea how sad it is to realize that there's only one person in the world whom i happen to know who feels the way i feel when certain therapy? songs start and this person probably doesn't care about that as much as i do nor misses the feeling of kinship half as much as i do. it's so sad it sometimes breaks my heart. then i want to scream but i only do things and more things, which is good because i get new patios and tons of air miles and a good career, but the feeling of oppression won't go away, especially because said kinship applies to stuff like songs and recognizing emotions and gazing skywards but, in a word, it doesn't apply to life anymore. how do you cope when you miss the pleasure in sharing reactions to a chorus in a song but you feel there's no understanding about big choices? and how do you cope if you start thinking that you've mistaken the former for the latter all along the way? only it's not that simple, it never was that simple. and i also listen to a lot of english oi bands from the eighties, now. no, not right now.

 

[Northern Lights]

@hyena: Maybe you should scream. Maybe you should print giant posters of the offender(s) (or offending things - anything even mildly offensive will do, really) and put them up all over your walls and throw darts at them while screaming bloody murder and stomping around like a tap dancer on speed? Sometimes, it seems some pure, unadultered rage can help when one is sad. And your situation certainly doesn't sound like much fun. I think we've all been there at some point, though, and everyone can sympathize. It's indeed heartbreaking when it happens. Anyway, if I had any actual good advice I would've offered it already. Just wanted to offer some sympathy and say something in the vein of "hang in there, you trooper you" and that in the end, it isn't your loss after all. Or well, something like that.

@hilj: Get well soon

NF: Bored. Lots of hatred for mankind. In the mood for some genocide. The usual, really. Looking forward to Saturday with Tiamat <3, Sentenced, Rammstein and, of course, DT.

 

[Nibelungvalesti]

Euphoria.

 

[hyena]

@nl: thanks. but i am in no way throwing darts at my walls after the horrifying amount of money i've spent on recent works. ah, and i am seething with envy at the thought of that Rammstein and everyone else show.

@nibelungwhatever: happy to hear, and welcome aboard.

nf: like i'm wasting my life, or something. i don't ever do anything relevant.

 

[Incendiare]

@hyena: Thanks, and I agree with NL. You are a very strong individual though and I know you will be able to handle it all perfectly. You can tackle anything.

@NL: Hope you'll have fun at the concert. Sounds like it'll be a great experience.

NF: Eh not bad. Just sent a cheque in the mail to rescore the exam, and the school counsellor is making several phonecalls trying to find out what the hell is happening.

 

[marduk1507]

I feel ok. Our new small business is doing good, weve had our first bigger order and made some good money. My new bike is great, I cycle to work and back like a fucking wind, hehe. Im looking forward to the Brutal Assault fest, this year a bus, which we (the metalheads from the nearby towns) have ordered, is taking us there and back for half the price. So, no worries and fights leaving the fest, which was the worst thing every year, and more money for cds and Ts. And the line up is the best in years, well its the 10th year, so it fucking should be! My wife is sitting beside me and were having fun posting...

@hyena: I would like to say something smart or funny to make you feel better, although I dont know you that much. I guess everybodys been aware of your not-so-good situation for some time and is probably worried, as I am. Maybe its time for you to use the occams razor and simply follow the right (the simplest) solution to your problems, cause you know what to do. Id posted some stupid comments regarding your previous posts, cause I didnt realize whats going on. Im sorry and wish you the best.

 

[Kovenant84]

@NL - Told my friend (HUGE Ramm fan) about the show you're going to and he proposed we fly to sweden for the weekend. I almost agreed...

~kov.

 

[Schwedentod]

Hello altogether!

So, here'¨s a small statement concerning the last 6 days... Arrived in Kristianstad after a 12,5 hour drive (including ferry, rests and meeting a friend in cologne quite early) last sunday at about half past 4 pm. When driving over the Öresundbridge I could see sweden for the first time in my life. That was the moment when a teardrop catched my eyes... Very moving moment, definitely.
Met some cool guys and partied quite a lot already, but yesterday I found out that I don't get drunk by folksöl (the beer you can buy in every supermarket). But there's more hard stuff in my car...
The people here are cool, especially a guy from London, another german guy and a girl from Innsbruck (no, it's not Caro...). She's some kind of Gothic/Metal/whatever and might join me going to Gates Of Metal which I'm looking forward to a lot.
Learning swedish is nice and interesting and having the fact that we just had 4 days of 3,5 hours each there's quite a lot we already learned.

The country is just beautiful, at least what I've seen so far! I'm really looking forward driving around here the coming weekend and watching everything.

That's all for now. I have the chance to get online in the libary of Kritianstad's university, so I might post more or less regurlarly within the next days.

NF: Brilliant but hungry.

 

[DragonLady1]

oooh sounds great! have a lot of fun and fantastic time! I wanna be there too and I wish I could have gone to the metaltown fest well wacken should be a good option as well, so its oke cant have everything

 

[Northern Lights]

Schwedentod: Look for signs that say "Systembolaget". That's where you buy the actual alcohol, if I'm not mistaken the stongest you can buy in a supermarket is around 3.5%. Because if we didn't buy all the stronger stuff from the same place, we'd all be alcoholics. The government says so. They also say that if they don't rip you off on alcohol, that too will mean we will all become raging alcoholics.

hyena, Inc, Kov: Yeah, it should be nice, hopefully If I can go - again, it seems like the forces of the universe are lining up to spoil my plans by yet more illness

 

[Malaclypse]

daniel, have fun out there, and don't drink too much öl! remember, you are supposed to be studying you're missing nothing here, shitty weather, and all the usual crap...

nf: odd mood. new model army always have been one of my (if not THE) favourite bands - but lately it got quiet around them and i didn't really focus on them. so just now i hit their website which states that their former drummer, robert heaton, died. ok, that was in nov. 2004, so i'm not quite up to date, but still, it feels weird to know this now. that guy was basically my entry point to drumming in general, and the songs he took part in mean much to me. so i'm a bit nostalgic right now, listening to old songs, drinking a beer, and thinking about wasted time.

I'm going to kiss the girls, make them cry
Live too fast, still not die - before I get old
I'm going to see you raised above this place
Watch the moments shine upon your face
Before I get old
I'll watch the sun set over every sea
From every city wall, every mountain peak
Before I get old
The Northern Lights and the Southern Cross
The harvests and the miles of dust
And the blowing wind across the world
So wrap this coat around yourself
And leave what's done behind
There's so much left for us to do
And yet there's so little time
I'm going to pull the fences to the ground
Watch the twisted towers come crumbling down
And start again
I want to be a hero and a villain and a father and a son
Take care of my body and abuse it still
Until everything goes numb
So let's make this dance and never fear
That there's any real reason why we're all here
Live real fast, still not die
Before I get old

 

[DragonLady1]

oh damn, New Model Army is kind of special for me, good memories on my first boyfriend

 

[Angelbreeze]

@MorbidEnemy: Don't be so rude with yourself, seems you're an excellent student, indeed.

NF: Lost and depressed. It's a kind of feeling like there's something missing...I wish I was dead.....

 

[solefald]

NF:tired and stressed.since 2 days Im painting and cleaning my apartement and theres so much work left to do...

 

[Salamurhaaja]

ecstatic!
I got the new PSU I needed for my new comp and soon I can, hopefully, put it all
together, been about 4 years since my last comp purchase, so it's gonna be a big
difference.

 

[Human Desert]

My "nice" sister, the one i always trusted and loved, has really let me down and betrayed me I feel like i don't even know who she is anymore. So i feel disappointed and hurt and lonely. I wish she hadn't done this to me.

 

[Kovenant84]

Like absolute shit. My gf just got a call from her mom. Her dog, the one she's had since she got it as a puppy when she was 7, has been sick recently, and the vet said it's a kind of kidney failure, and she won't last much longer. She's in a terrible state (dog and gf both), and they say she can't even move she's so sick, so she winds up throwing up and defecating all over herself (the dog, not gf...). They want to put her down tomorrow if she lasts through the night, so I'll be making the trip tonight to be with her (gf) for support. To say the dog meant alot to her would be the most ridiculous understatement of all time. Granted, she's 14, which is pretty damn old for a dog, so we kinda saw it coming that there'd be a day we'd have to say goodbye, but this isn't how we envisioned it.

~kov.

 

[Human Desert]

I know exactly how she feels, trust me i'm not just saying that. It's been almost two years since my cats died, but i still miss them like hell and cry about it all the time. The pain of loss never goes away. I feel sorry for your gf

 

[hyena]

@idari and kov: sorry to hear.

me, i'm finally quite happy, although definitely tired. my flight had a spiffy 14-hour delay, but now i'm nicely settled in Washington, where i'll be for three weeks. i made it to the hotel barely in time for breakfast, so off to have some food i go.

 

[Siren]

@hyena: hope you have a good time there, you deserve it after all the shit you've been through.
have some fun for me too, will ya?