The definite, new "How Do You Feel" Thread

[hyena]

it's been raining all the time until something like five minutes ago. i've been trading my bu off for the whole morning, did nicely although nothing spectacular, am now off.

@nick: i'm writing to you soon.

 

[fireangel]

NF: I need to change my life more quickly
Also I`m gonna miss a lot of grand things in this and the next month, and I well hope I can see it was worth it very soon. It will be worth having missed them them sooner or later, I know that, but I´d prefer sooner.
This country is driving me insane, this surrounding is driving me insane and many things are very complicated. Oh well, I take the challenge
At least I just ordered the new Black League straight from the cold dark north

 

[solefald]

NF:strange. just cleaned my room, my kitchen into perfection and defrosted the refrigerator without failure(The last time I did this the refrigerator did not survive). and now Im waiting for my exgf arrive here to see The Hauned playing here in munich.
Just dont know how to react right this evening
I hope The Haunted will blast my sorrow away

 

[Magrathean]

I'll comment on people's feelings later (when i have more time). Right now i'll just say that i don't see how the parenthesis thing has anything to do with my vision on my life, but yes, i do think it's pointless and yes, i do prefer somewhat the world of internet forums than the "real" world, although the real reason i write in UM is that i love this place compared to mst of the rest of the internet.

 

[Wolfman Von Jones]

I feel like I might need a hair cut. My hair is starting to look realllllllly stupid. I got a job interview today at this cool little coffee shop by my house. I really want to work there (although the monetary gain sucks) because it's so damn close and I dont mind cooking/making coffee.

Nick

 

[Magrathean]

Lolita: When do you get vacations?

hyena: What’s your bu?

fireangel: Care to be a bit more specific?

sole: Pretend it’s just another evening.. and smile at your successes of today (the cleaning and defrosting things). And think that it’s cool that you’re still friends with your ex, or did i gewt it completely wrong?

Nick: Hope you get that job.

Okay, i'll post on other UM threads and then be off to a party thing at uni.

 

[hyena]

@alex: lookie (in that case, it meant 'ass')

@nick: your hair looked just ok to me last night... still, i'm getting a haircut myself tomorrow.

nf: went out, saw goblet of fire again, was happy about it. had a decent indian dinner, played pool, came home. on my cell phone's list of missed calls, i found a call from my brother. i'm sure that he's logged on my mom's bank account tonight and found out that i've been doing stuff - namely, getting cold sweats for hours to trade high-risk stuff and make her some quick cash (which i did). he probably did not understand what went on so he wants to check on what i'm doing. he spends his time minding his own business, but then he wants to check on what i'm doing. the fucking loser is controlling what i do. i'll most definitely tell him that if he wants to see even one tenth of the cash i make on his/their behalf he will have to leave-me-the-fuck-alone. :/

 

[Magrathean]

Oh, yes, i'd seen that thread already, but 'bu' seems to have so many different meanings that it's hard for me to guess that bu's meaning.

And yes, tell him to mind his own business. Gah, i hate it when people try to control what one does.

Anywho, now i'm feeling like i could be somewhere else with someone else doing something else and having a better time. Just came home from a party thing that went on at my uni (they made an end-of-the-year / christmas party-thing with dinner and dancing and music and poetry and stuff), and i really should have left after the second show (the first show was one of my classmates playing the bagpipe, and the second one was arabic dancing, and after that the shows weren't that good, and afterwards, when all the shows were almost over and dinner was about to begin, i started feeling horrible for some reason (guess i'm bipolar like that ), and the bloody feeling lasted till the dinner-thing was over and i decided i'd had enough). How i needed a blade tonight... :\

/rant

 

[wildfyr]

nf: comfortably numb

 

[Wolfman Von Jones]

Well I got the job, which is cool I guess, people seem cool, pay is decent .

Nick

 

[hyena]

@nick: great

 

[rahvin]

Right now i'll just say that i don't see how the parenthesis thing has anything to do with my vision on my life

that was partly a joke, not to worry about it. still, overabundant or clumsy punctuation is usually a sign of too much time spent organizing thoughts into words. gives the impression you might want to take your keyboard to bed with you. not that there aren't worse things to sleep with, mind you.

 

[fireangel]

fireangel: Care to be a bit more specific?

Well, I found that pretty specific already

An example of the "save up life for later"-method is, that I go to only very few selected gigs and save up the money instead (which is usually ticket plus travel) because what I really want to see is Katatonia in Sweden, or Before The Dawn in Finland and such. In the past, when I acted so, doing without something always was rewarded by things even better. Like in 2001 I lived three months extremely frugal so at the end of the summer I could fly to Budapest and visit Sziget Festival, seeing HIM on stage and some friends, and I had the time of my life for two weeks. It was all worth it and more. Even the always_hoping that the band still exists when I finally go to see them

The thing that drives me insane is that this kind of living (not only concerning gigs but in general) completely contradicts the saying of "live every day as if it was your last", or "carpe diem" and what else you can find on this topic. But for me this never works. I plan very long-term, I´m very patient and I experienced often enough that my method is perfect for me. I have periods of time when I just work & study very much, and try to save money, and months were I travel and feel like I was already in heaven.

And this whole way of thinking applies to my general life plan, too, but right now I´m in a phase of saving up and cannot go anywhere, and lots of problems to solve, so sometimes it´s all difficult. Then I just know how much more grand the future is going to be (not because of mere dreams but because of facts) and the good things I have in my life, and try to get over it Just I really can´t integrate that carpe-diem-thingy anywhere.... Probably it´s not for me

 

[Magrathean]

Nick: That's cool. =)

rahvin: Ohhh... thanks for explaining... sorry about my limited sense of humor... and the reason why i overorganize thoughts into words and waste a great part of my life making sure the punctuation (among other things) is perfect is that i'm excessively obsessive and a perfectionist.

fireangel: Ok, now i understand. All i have to say is that if long-term planning works for you then a) keep planning and b) wow, i'm not that crazy then.

 

[Human Desert]

NF: Had lots of fun in Corner bar last night, and now i'm a bit hangoverish, but not much.

 

[hyena]

nf: bothered by the permanent rain. i want to go out, dammit. enough with the rain.

 

[Magrathean]

I love rain.
But i guess it sucks if you want to go out.
I'm not much of a going-out person, you see.

NF: Happy that i finally found out what was wrong with my C programs (which i have to turn in on tuesday, so i'm quite relieved too).

 

[wildfyr]

Well, I found that pretty specific already

An example of the "save up life for later"-method is, that I go to only very few selected gigs and save up the money instead (which is usually ticket plus travel) because what I really want to see is Katatonia in Sweden, or Before The Dawn in Finland and such. In the past, when I acted so, doing without something always was rewarded by things even better. Like in 2001 I lived three months extremely frugal so at the end of the summer I could fly to Budapest and visit Sziget Festival, seeing HIM on stage and some friends, and I had the time of my life for two weeks. It was all worth it and more. Even the always_hoping that the band still exists when I finally go to see them

The thing that drives me insane is that this kind of living (not only concerning gigs but in general) completely contradicts the saying of "live every day as if it was your last", or "carpe diem" and what else you can find on this topic. But for me this never works. I plan very long-term, I´m very patient and I experienced often enough that my method is perfect for me. I have periods of time when I just work & study very much, and try to save money, and months were I travel and feel like I was already in heaven.

And this whole way of thinking applies to my general life plan, too, but right now I´m in a phase of saving up and cannot go anywhere, and lots of problems to solve, so sometimes it´s all difficult. Then I just know how much more grand the future is going to be (not because of mere dreams but because of facts) and the good things I have in my life, and try to get over it Just I really can´t integrate that carpe-diem-thingy anywhere.... Probably it´s not for me

Wow. I think I caught the gist of that. So here's what you do... 'carpe' wherever you may be at any given time. If I'm wrong about this - if you think I've misunderstood, then please feel free to correct/clarify. Thanks!

 

[hyena]

'carpe' = type of fish in Italian.

 

[Magrathean]

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