The definite, new "How Do You Feel" Thread

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NF: Weird. There's this girl who went to my uni today and yesterday to see if she likes it or not (she's planning to enter next year), and we've gotten along pretty well... but she reminds me so much of a girl i used to know, a girl with whom i almost started a relationship... o_O not just like i remember that other girl when i talk to this one, but it's as though they were almost the same person... they even look alike (i.e. physically)...
 
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...well that can be good but also a little wierd, if you start something with this new girl remember not to call her by the first girls name:) i think that she will be pissed

NF: lonely and really really angry with no apparent reason and at no one in particular i'm just angry at everything, i think that i should really find some way to vent myself. The winter is starting to get to me, it is so depressing it is always dark and with my new job i come home at 5 a.m. at sleep till 4p.m so i totally miss the whole day.
I also have to start studying becouse the university semester is drawing to its end and all the exams will start soon and i promised myself that i will imrove my grade point average this time around ...
 
:lol: Don't worry, i won't... or at least i'll try not to! I can't remember the second girl's name... something with Ana.... :\

But i don't think i'll start something with her. For once, i'm happy to be single, so i won't screw that up. ;)
 
My excitement is turning into slight nervousnes :p I'll see DT tomorrow and Im up for a crazy weekend it seems :)
 
@undocontrol: well, i just saw the movie paid in full (which is quite bad except for makhi pfeifer's superb acting, by the way). at some point the lead is having dinner with his girlfriend, and she tells him that she finds him boring. he asks her why she stays with him nonetheless, and she replies that she's boring, too. in the end, he gets shot, his girlfriend has a baby then she gets shot too, his best friend is murdered and his best friend's kid brother is kidnapped, tortured and finally killed. i wouldn't want to imply anything. :)
 
WVJ: Really? I find it more tiresome to cook for myself than to cook for more people.

Hyena: (Taking into account that you're not implying that all of that might happen to me,) are you saying that in the end i won't be that boring? ;)
 
UndoControl said:
NF: Like total shit. I seriously want to die. Or at least something sharp.
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:erk: *is scared* hey, is there anything we can do for you? we don't want you to die, you know. and we don't even want you to fall on something sharp. i can only give you a silly cyber-hug, hope that helps.

nf: well, aside from the awful behavior of the hungarian forint (which makes me cry), i had a pleasant night. was out for dinner at a friend's, drank an awful lot, did not get drunk tho. tomorrow i'm on holiday, and i'm going to wake up late, go to the gym, go shopping with mates, and then go see goblet of fire again on a very wide screen. on saturday i have a date i don't want to go on, the latest sukurov movie, and a neat punk show. i really never went out that much in this city. i'm starting to have a nice circle of local friends again - i tried and failed for a while, but now i have people i'm comfortable with. unfortunately the one i like best, a french girl, is moving back to france in the summer... but for the time being i'll hang out with her and have fun. only troubling fact of the night: one of said mates, actually the one i've been hanging out with since i came here (we work together), came to the party after being on a weeklong trip and i realized i'd really, really, really missed him this past week. there was a tinge of melancholic longing in seeing him - since i do know we have next to nothing in common and i don't like him 'that way', i am forced to acknowledge that i'm even more unbalanced emotionally than i thought. when i do want to hug and touch someone i am most definitely not infatuated with because i haven't seen him for a week, it's really bad news.

edit: speaking of being a psycho, i am just hating my idiotic imagination more and more by the minute. as i was telling rahvin a couple of weeks ago, i keep on having the most annoying flashes more and more often - for example, ten seconds ago i thought 'i need to climb the stairs to the loft where i sleep and carry a glass of water with me', and uninvited comes the image of me climbing down the stairs with said glass of water, the glass falling from my hand and shattering on the floor, me falling from the stairs and ending up with glass all over my face. i won't be able to function normally anymore if every time i think of anything visions of freak accidents and blood come to me instantly. fuck.
 
SNOW! SNOW! SNOW! Well you guessed it, it's snowing alot, about a foot actually. Now I have to contend with the people that forgot it's snowing and drive like it's sunny and warm outside. Happy days are here at last :).

Claud that doesnt sound good. Although I sort of feel you on this one, I had sort of the same thing happen to me before. If you're interested PM me, and we'll discuss in length.

Nick
 
hyena: Thanks for that. The “silly” cyber-hug does help. =P I’m much better now, although the problem is still there and won’t go away at least until i’m completely done with this semester of uni.

See, i had a calculus exam this morning. I love calculus and i think i’m quite good at it, but i overslept and was an hour late for my exam. As a result of the reduced time i had, i couldn’t answer all of it (plus i answered one or two questions really quick and am not sure if i answered them correctly), so i’ll probably get around 60% (or 70% in the best of cases). With other subjects i don’t have such high standards for myself, but in math i get pissed if i get less than 95% and feel like total shit if i get less than 90%. Guess i’m that much of a nerd/geek/whatever. *shrugs*

It wasn’t just that. I also did horribly at biology, and i didn’t have a very good morning (and i almost crashed two or three times today in my car), so everything added up to me wanting to die. I’m emotional like that.

But the wise words of a future teacher, a day out with friends, a cell phone message from my best friend and a cyber-hug from someone i respect a lot did the trick, and now i don’t feel so much like shit anymore. =)

Anyway.. It’s cool that you get out tomorrow (by the time you read this, you’ll already be out ;)). My suggestion is not to go to that date if you don’t want to. And about your friend i’m just going to say that maybe you like him a lot without being in love with him (i think i understand how you feel about him, since i feel that way (like her a lot without being in love with her, and we’ve talked and we both agree that even if we did like each other that way it wouldn’t work) about my best friend), so it’s not that bad to miss him a lot when you haven’t seen him for a while. And those freak accident thoughts... just ignore them, as they’re unlikely to become true. I often imagine myself crashing horribly in my car or falling from the top of the Tepozteco (a small mountain i used to climb a lot) or being shot or even ending up somehow in some accident in which i survive but lose my limbs, but i don’t think any of those will happen anytime soon (and if i do then i hope i die in them and not stay alive and suffer). You’re not alone. ;)
 
@undocontrol: hyena's more of a keen observer than i am, but i tend to believe that both a post-rate of 11.74 per day and the use (of parentheses (within (parentheses) is a sure) sign that you) don't value your life much. coming from a time when i would feel the same - except for the desire to die or something sharp, unless by the latter you mean blue cheese - i have to suggest suspension of judgement: it might as well be that, in your eyes, your life will never be quite worth it, but you can let it slide for a while. no need to worry about it all the time.
 
marduk1507 said:
Says the one whos post rate is 10.33 per day. :p
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no, no, you're absolutely right, and i blame the same feelings for such a disgusting habit. ;) easy to see how i would post 30-40 messages a day when i was much more apathetic about what was going on around me in the physical sense. this is not to bash forums or the internet in general, but too much of a good thing is still too much.
 
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