You sound like someone I know....me! I don't like religion and I certainly wasn't searching for one, so it had to take something a bit more than "hey, Im gonna start believing in the gods, yeah that sounds about right" to get me here, too. I still really don't think of it as religion - that's only 'cause I lack a better word for it. It's more like some funky mix of ancestor worship, philosophy, lifestyle and some thing I have no idea what the hell it is because I can't explain it scientifically. Meeting up with Odin is one of the latter.
I have to tell you though, Krigly Bigly, that Ran "put the fear of God" into me. Probably because I didn't recognize her and I was not expecting her (as in I did not see her coming). I half expected to be faced with another Odin episode at some point, but Ran came right out of left field. That was sort of like dude walking down the street suddenly gets hit with a bottle over the head from behind - kind of hard to defend yourself. Odin has only ever stared me in the face, but she came from behind, and litterally physically knocked me down and dragged me, right in front of a whole bunch of people, all of whom - except for my gythia, who saw what was happening - were wondering what the hell was happening to me... So, that part I can't explain rationally, even with all sorts of psychology and all that, because it's never just happening to "just me". Other people who are there, who are not believers, complete strangers, see it and feel it happening to me, too. The first time I "saw" Odin there were three of us who saw him, only they lost it and ran!
I recently got an e-mail from a girl who doesn't actually know me or my religious stance. She wrote to tell me she'd had a dream about a woman who she described to me, and that she'd been told by another woman in the dream to contact me and tell me that "she" (the first woman) would be fine, actually better than ever, but not the same ever again. The first woman she described looked like my gythia when she's wearing ritual garb, down to the colour of the cloak she wears, and the pattern on the trim on it and all (how many people walk around in Norse ritual garb, anyhow??). I confirmed that it was my gythia by sending her a picture with more than one person to see if she could pick anyone out of it that looked like the woman in her dream. My gythia has recently had two terribly bad accidents and has been very debilitated. By the sounds of it, she will get better, even better than before, as they've found out about, and fixed, some as of before undiagnosed health issues. The second woman she described sounds an awful lot like one of the disir. My gythia is dedicated to Tyr, but she is very fond of the disir. The day after I got that mail, before I had a chance to tell anyone, my gythia, who'd never called here before, calls me out of the blue and asks me if I know anyone in Uppsala, because she had the feeling that someone in Uppsala was trying to reach her repeatedly. The girl that e-mailed me lives in Uppsala. All this could all be coinsidence, but you've got to admit it's a bit weird, huh? I mean, I'm sure you could explain it all if you tried, but it's just plain weird.