I am not sure what I want, but I am pretty sure of what I don't want. I will probably kill myself if I end up working some soul crushing job in a factory or a office. i have worked both (currently working in a factory) and I hate them both so much there is not way i could handle a life worth of either. I feel the need to do something that allows me to be creative and I have a desire to do creative things, but I have no idea what. I lack any solid skills that would point me in the right direction, such as the ability to draw/paint/act/sing/write/play music/what have you, but something like that sounds the most appealing. I am terrified I will end up doing something totally average and meaningless with my life. My parents always show me these job openings that could turn into careers and I have zero interest in any of them. I don't want to spend years of my life at some meaningless job becasue it makes me a lot of money. Fuck that. I am 22 and have not the slightest clue as to what I am doing with my life. I don't even know which direction to head. It is incredibly frustrating and a constant source of anxiety for me. So gaiz wut shud I do?
Holy shit. I'm not laughing at you, I'm laughing at the fact that you sound exactly like I did just 2-3 years ago. I was working at a factory, going no where in my life, dealing with complete fucking morons on a daily basis, and detested the idea of working for the rest of my life so that I could "retire." However, I have a solution to your problems: join the military.
Now before you flip out on me and say go fuck yourself, just think about it. Depending on the branch you join, you could potentially be doing a "job" that you wouldn't normally be able to do as some random guy out there in the civilian world. You get free room and board, free training, free travel AROUND THE WORLD, and if you specialize in something that truly interests you, you will be working towards retirement in merely 20 years. So by 42, instead of 56+, you could be retired gaining a full pension for life. All the while having spent your life traveling the world doing good deeds and "living."
This is why I think the military is so great and it boggles my mind that so many people overlook it. I hear the same crap over and over, "But I don't want to be out there getting shot at, blah blah blah." Truth of the matter is, unless you are in some sort of combat oriented job, you won't be in harms way. If I hadn't been discharged from the Marine Corps with my leg injury, I'd still be in right now. Regardless, I'm looking to rejoin the National Guard so that I may finish school and become an officer in the military. I've seen what's out there in terms in civilian jobs, and to be completely honest, unless you are doing making a shit ton of money or are fortunate enough to be doing what you truly "love", your job is going to be lame and for the most part, your life is going to be lame. That's not so with the military.
Even if you just do one enlistment, you will still have gone many places for free that you wouldn't have even considered, made true friends that you never would have met otherwise, and will be set to complete school at your leisure because of the government's financial aid programs. On top of that, you'll gain a completely different perspective on life, and learn a lot things about yourself that you never really knew. It's only 4 years, in the grand scheme of things, is that really that long?