Ah well, I was gonna ignore this, but I'm bored, so what the, ummmm, hell
I was a 'satanist' for a while. Basically it was a reaction to everything around me. I was christian, but most of the christians I knew were either really square (if you're 16 and can't say 'fuck', you have a problem, IMHO), or complete hypocrites (I was bullied by the leader of my schools christian group, and then he would tell me Metallica were evil. Go figure). I came to the conclusion that, "well, if this is what it means to follow god, I'm outta here". Basically I felt satanism was a more honest way to conduct myself. Instead of someone claiming to be all 'love' and then stabbing you in the back, just be honest and do what you want, without the mask. I should say, I had no interest in hurting anyone/anything, and conducted myself as any normal person would, it was a phylisophical concept, not an attitude. I didn't even tell anyone, it was a personal thing, not a trendy badge. As far as the 'burning in hell' idea someone mentioned, my idea was this- God should judge me on who I am, what I have done etc... If I have basically been a nice person, treated everyone with respect (to a degree, reference the guy I mentioned before

), then if my God was petty enough to condemn me to eternal sufferring because of a concept, I would welcome it because I wanted no part of him. Eventually I realised that there are as many satanist assholes as there are christian assholes (all this stupid "you're not a satanist unless you do this.., or this..", then someone else would come up with a different idea of what was 'true'. The main thing I hate about christianity. Don't know why, I expected satanists to be more sensible), so having evaluated both sides, I found the whole concept wanting, and now nolonger believe in god (well, the Christian god, atleast, I favour a broader concept that doesn't involve an entity to worship, more just a 'force of nature' if you will (and yes, that's explained badly)).
Just my two cents, probably explained badly
