I didn't reply yesterday because I had a terrible day and was exhausted by the time I got home. And I didn't reply earlier today because I didn't feel like it. But I didn't disappear. Here's my reply.
Rahvin: Then let’s all stop calling each other things and going “you’re arrogant” instead of going straight to the point. How does that sound?
(<< for some reason i hate that smiley...)
Taliesin said:
First of all, most of the normal people cant help you. If they dont leave you alone it may be because they want to help you anyway. The very people who could help you are the very same you keep refusing.
Why do you need help anyway, you said there was nothing wrong with you in the first place. I mean, do you see how you contradict yourself?
I didn’t say i needed help. I didn’t contradict myself. I was using the example we’ve been using all along: a “mentally ill” person not being able to do something (i.e. buy a car). I’ve never been unable to do anything (except maybe carry on a healthy relationship with someone who later turned out to hate obsessive people) because of any mental condition i have or don’t have.
Taliesin said:
Not every mentally ill person can buy a car. Paranoia, Social Anxiety, Schizophrenia and whatnot can very well make it impossible. Show me how the irrational fear of other people or the intense feeling of being followed and spied upon or severe hallucinations and delusions have anything to do with how society acts towards those people at all.
Fear isn’t caused by society. I never said that. I said that being unable to do something (i really don’t see how being afraid, or rather, “excessively” cautious, of people could keep you from buying a car) probably is. Another thing: i never said those conditions didn’t have their negative sides. Sure, it must be hell to hallucinate stuff and then find out that everything you thought you knew isn’t real. But it might --just might, so as to not offend everyone else here-- have its good things. Alright, alright, they’re not human evolution (happy?
), but some conditions do have
very positive effects, like obsession (and, yes, paranoia; just because you’re paranoid it doesn’t mean they’re not following you
). Hell, even depression, if we consider it a condition and not a consequence: in my very personal and particular opinion, and i’m sure that many here will agree with me (and if not then a lot of people i know do agree anyway), the best art (not the only good art) is sad art.
Taliesin said:
Depression may be triggered by that, yes. Depression is more than that though. If someone calls you "sick" and for some reason that comment really has a devestating impact on yourself, you may feel down for an hour.. or two.. or half the night. At some point you'll be over it. The imbalances in your brain that cause depressions though would remind you every second of the day they are there. Someone once said that depression feels as if it was raining inside your head all the time. Ive been there and trust me, it is very different from "feeling bad" or someone calling you "sick"
And i went through two years of depression (i.e. constant sadness all day every day, no matter what), and it was all caused by society (namely people i knew, not society in general) and my inability to get along with it, and maybe even their inability to get along with me. But, agreed, chemical “imbalances” are not society-caused.
Taliesin said:
Why dont you provide an example then? Tell me what you still consider normal behaviour that others call "mentally ill" already.
First of all, i don’t quite get what you’re trying to say. I’d appreciate it if you could rephrase that. Second, i already said that the word ‘normal’ doesn’t make any sense to me, so there’s no ‘normal behavior’.
Taliesin said:
Im amazed at how calmly you state your points against so many people.
I’m used to it.
And yes, it
is interesting.
fireangel said:
All in all, I do not have the patience to read all of your replies here
I understand. It’s not easy to read through pages of such long and controversial posts. I myself have at times been too lazy to read and reply. The downside of posting without reading is, as you’ve seen, that you might say something that has already been addressed. I’ll try not to snap at people for this anymore (unless it gets really, really anoying, such as 856907489 people saying the same thing and that thing already having been addressed, in which case i might provide a link to the part where it was addressed
). Anywho...
fireangel said:
the general impression I have is that you just are fed up with the negative sides of being an outsider and try to make it more bearable by declaring yourself better, special, genius and creative, and the others as the jealous ones who have no other means of dealing with it than to to declare you ill.
You’re right in that i am fed up with the negative sides of being an outsider (i liked the way you put that. No sarcasm
). Maybe i did get a bit carried away with the ‘genius’ thing, but i’m not just saying that i’m better in order to relieve the pain. I do believe ‘nonstandard mental conditions’ and, so to say, ‘genius’ (i hate using this word because of what it implies, but i couldn’t find a better word for what i’m trying to say) are connected in some way.
fireangel said:
picking at those who are different and preferrably in the minority. So that might have led you to writing this text in the first place, as a self-defendance and making the others look as the spawn of boredom.
In this case, i’m the minority picking on the masses.
No, i didn’t write that to make others look bad. I wrote the first thing because i thought that way a few months ago and i wrote the second thing because i think that way now (okay, i might have changed my mind with respect to one or two things since this discussion (see, LaRocque?
), but generally i think that way).
fireangel said:
I had the same kind of thoughts when I was 18 and fed up with everyone. Possibly you´ll just grow out of them and feel much better in the long run
That sounded as though you were seeing me as a little boy and you were a big girl who’s already been through what i’m going through. Or maybe you do see things that way.
Human Desert said:
I didn't read any further than this
UndoControl said:
The downside of posting without reading is, as you’ve seen, that you might say something that has already been addressed.
..Which is why i won’t reply to that.
Hitori said:
It seems like you avoid the main idea and get stuck on giving us dictionary definitions.
So what
is the main idea, according to you?
Hitori said:
well you could start by capitalizing your "I"s, and setting an example for all of us.
For your convenience and comfort, in this thread I’ll capitalize my I’s whenever I remember to from now on. Remind me later to start another (controversial, though less so, I hope) thread on why the word ‘I’ shouldn’t be capitalized.
Hitori said:
and no, you didn't hurt my feelings, don't worry, you're still being pleasant and the good person here.
That appears to me like sarcasm, but, as it’s hard to transmit everything you mean to and just what you mean to in an internet-based forum and maybe you didn’t mean for it to be sarcastic, I’ll pretend you never said that.
Hitori said:
I bet you haven't ever read any serious psychology source.
Does Robert Feldman’s “Psychology” count?
Hitori said:
As for the definition of brilliant you used, I did not misunderstand it, I merely gave you MY view on what a "brilliant" person is. Maybe it's you who isn't reading carefully enough.
But the argument here is about
my definition of ‘brilliant’ (no, I’m not implying that only what I say is right or anything similar to that; I’m only saying that, in this case, your definition of brilliant had little to do with the thread. And no, I’m not using this as a last-resort defense against you).
Hitori said:
Yeah, I was basically stating I disagree with your having a superior mind, based on your online "please everyone" personna and what writings I've seen from you.
I never, ever intended to “please everyone”. People spontaneously started commenting on how much the UM forums needed a new member like me (I’m pretty sure they exaggerated a bit, but it makes no difference), and all I said was “thank you”. Whether that and my other posts pleased everyone or not is not my problem, since pleasing everyone is not my objective in this forum. I joined for other reasons. And I don’t really care if you like my writings or not, since everyone is entitled to their own opinions and tastes (oh, but I don’t think I need to say this, as everyone on here is so mature). And, for that matter, I don’t care if you agree with anything or not.
Hitori said:
but, like, we're still friends, right?
Tell me something: Do I have serious issues when it comes to reading between lines, or was the sarcasm in that sentence infinite?
plintus said:
Of course, if you can't find any good perks, you are going to use your traits as the mark of being unique and like no other.
Of course, you can state you wrote all them Pantera lyrics...
I’m trying to defend my point, I’m not just shouting something and then waiting for answers to hail on me. I find the comparison between what I’m trying to prove and claiming that I wrote all Pantera lyrics insulting.
plintus said:
We had some schizoid shoot some people in Philly a few months ago, one of them was an old lady, who was shot in the back of her head in the Center City, in the middle of the street early in the morning, going to work (5-6 am). Besides that, I have more reasons to be aware.
Obviously, I can’t reply to that because I don’t know shit about that person or the crime. Good weapon, using arguments the other person can’t reply to. I admire your strategy. But take away the multiple personalities or delusions that person might have had and most likely they still would have shot people. Or do you seriously believe every criminal is “mentally ill”?
Angelbreeze said:
someone who seems to be close-minded
Um... read all of my replies? Especially this one. I’m not
that close-minded. Tell me something. Did you take the time to read through whatever you read through and post (and then even edit your post) only to say that you have nothing to say? Or am I missing something?