My story is something like that: I used to play in the german hardcore band Tackleberry, they're kinda famous in the scene here. We came together in 2004. Was my hole life, I did all the song writing and stuff (not the lyrics). We played a lot shows in just 2 years of beeing it was allready more than a 150 and we fast became one of the most active hardcore-bands in germany (more the oldschool stuff and posistyle). We played a tour through russia (I met my fiance there), a few times germany and france. In this february my mother died at the age of 52 because her kidneys stopped working. it took about 2 weeks for her and then it was over. Since a few month, a 2 weeks tour was planed with a russian band to make some kind of benefit tour for the antifa in russia (they got a HUGE nazi problem, on guy was killed on his way to our last show in moscow). It was just one week after she died.
It was like that: everyone would understand if I would say "no way" but I did it anyway because I knew what it ment to all the others. I thought it could help myself, too. So I did the tour with all this shit in my head (my father allready died 4 years ago). Just to not let them down. One before the last concert a wash basin felt down on my foot and cut off one of my fingers. damn. anyway, I got into hospital, they fixed it. next day I was on stage again, playing in a chair.
we came back, they went to the next shows just 3 days later and said I shall stay at home and recover a bit. on this tour, they decided to kicked me out.
actually it was more or less a problem between me and the bassplayer. he said is not able to play with me in a band anymore because of personal problems. when he had me in his arms just when my mother died he just said "everything going to be ok with us, we'll do that together".
since he told me, I never heard a word. few weeks ago I sended an email to them with a big fuck you to all of them. did the job for me now. they let me down in the worst moment of my live and I called these persons some kind of friend. whatever.
now I got my new band and this great forums just helps me a WHOLE fuckin lot to make it possible to record it very soon.
much of detail, but actually I'm not talking about this a lot and right now it just felt damn good.
sorry for mistakes in spelling and stuff.
thx for listening.
oh yeah:
www.myspace.com/tackleberryhc
they even got me in the "former members" list. thanks guys!