Brekke - that kind of sums up what I feel, too. Oftentimes, it feels like they're meant as reminders that "Yes, you can". Sometimes I see them in places I know ravens are not supposed to be in, like in the middle of my little niece's funeral. That was just a reminder that I was not alone, and neither was she. I'll tell you a story without mentioning any names or anything, since it's someone some of us on the forum know:
A very dear friend of mine, whom I look up to a lot (and who loves AA), used to be a navy SEAL when he was younger. To become a SEAL, you have to pass some of the most grueling training any military organization can throw at you. Many can do it physically, but give up mentally. When my friend was at that point, on his way up to ring that damn bell that you're supposed to ring if you want to give up and leave the program, feeling completely spent and burned out with exhaustion, he was stopped dead in his tracks by a big-ass raven landing right in front of him, in one of those places where ravens don't go. That's when my friend knew that "Yes, he could", and so he stuck with the program till the end.
Hi, Horny guy! LOL. Well, some do see the gods, some don't, some have visions, some don't. I was the one who "saw" Oden (and a few others). I personally do not "see" them as regular human beings walking around on the street like you and I, but I have visions of some kind. I'm not sure how to explain it any better. Sometimes it's kind of like that feeling you get when you can tell someone is watching you, you know? Other times it's more tangible, like you can feel someone is there, body heat beside my own skin, or cold breath, but I have had "visions" (damn this is hard to explain!!) where I've been taken off to another place. On those occasions, my spirit can see and speak to other spirits. I have no idea how to explain all this to you. I don't believe in ghosts, I do not believe in religion either, I am not on medication and have been told that I am sane, and yet, this defies logic. I also can't explain why it is that when my brother gets hurt, I can feel the pain, even though we are separated by an ocean, or how I know when my friend has had an accident, even though I was sleeping on the other side of the world and woke up from the shock... It just is something that happens to me that I am unable to explain logically. I can shoote so many holes in any logic applied to it that it's not even funny, so I've stopped trying to justify it. It just is, whether I like it or not. It's also why I say we don't choose these gods, they choose us. That, and the fact that when I do see them, they always want me to prove that I still have what it takes to be one of the pack.
