i keep on doing nothing today, but I must admit i had my fair share of fun.
i know maybe most of you do not care, but since this thread is on the emotional/personal side i thought maybe this would fit...
...last november i fell for a bu who was going out with someone else - aformentioned bu accurately proceeded to delude me and let me believe that in the end i could be the chosen one, with all the necessary affectionate gestures and sweet words referred to me and hidden from the despicable rival. all, mind you, bar sex: this is because in some people's mind is okay to be engaged and let a person who is not your partner hold you and cuddle you for two whole nights, but any active participation is forbidden and labeled as treachery. duh! i never found this good an excuse to perpetually be on the receiving end
at a point i got stressed, since i was really involved and it was sort of difficult for me to be kept hanging by a thread (this one in particular): so i asked for a decision. either we were going to be a couple, or we could stop being ambiguous around each other.
what i get in reply is: "i need the both of you in ways that are so much different that prevent me from a decision". translation: i want to have my cake and eat it.
of course i cut all relevant communication, and proceeded with the parade of rightful accusations: cowardice, absence of any structure, systematic alteration of the truth to suit petty needs. this sort of got me nowhere, leading me to more matter-of-factly behavior: i simply wrote to a mailing list of people we both know and exposed a number of blatant lies that hadn't been fed to me only.
i got no apparent reaction, but last week my car was towed away. when i got it back, i was informed that someone had called the police to have it removed - my chosen parking spot was illegal, so i was risking a ticket, but the abduction (aah!) of the car required an explicit complaint on the part of a private citizen.
i thought i was being made object of a wise payback operation - i'm not sure to this day of the culprit, but this is not so important - and wrote a very menacing email on that very night, saying that there was no possibility of getting away with such an infamous behavior.
i was completely surprised when the bu practically went into a shock, dreading retribution on my (and rahvin's) part: and the very, very nice part is that he's been begging to be left alone and quiet from that moment. today he made a total fool of himself shouting at me in front of people he didn't know at all, and saying that i should mind my own business, stop persecuting him, and stop making him lose sleep over my possible acts against him... you can imagine the faces of students passing by and seeing this guy red i the face and shouting at someone who looked extremely relaxed. at a point paranoia got the best of him and he said i should disappear: nothing can rival the look of terror on his face when i simply said "no".
hyena (winners take all)
it's 96 today.....and i feel the days are passing so slowly....it's still a long way to go 
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the only words that come to my mind are not polite enough to be written here 
