well mel, you should try to relax, those who care for you can't be that disapointed, and I guess not even your mother, who sure cares and worries about you....None of us want to see you down.
I know how it is to feel burnt-out and actually I'm feeling the same after my birthday I realize how my life is stuck here and I feel I have to move forward. I don't know, may be making things change will make the right shift in your life.
Lean on any shoulder given to you, it's better to pass this with the ones you love, even you feel you disapoint them (and I'm sure if they love you, they won't get disapoint and will try to help you)
fathervic (not_wondering)